Americans -- Italy -- Fiction; Children of the rich -- Fiction; Love stories
‘Our party, next week, seems heartless, doesn’t it—sort of like giving
a ball while the people next door are having a funeral? I wanted to
give it up, but Uncle Howard looked so hurt when I proposed it that I
didn’t say anything more about it.’
‘No, certainly not. That would be foolish and useless. Because some
people have to be unhappy is no reason why all should be.’
‘I suppose not,’ she agreed slowly; and then she added, ‘The world used
to be so much pleasanter to live in before I knew there was any misery
in it—I wish I didn’t have to know!’
‘Miss Marcia, I told you the other day that it was a relief sometimes
to see people who are thoroughly, irresponsibly happy; who dance over
the pit without knowing it’s there. A man who has been in the pit, who
knows all its horrors—who feels as if he reeked with them—likes
occasionally to see some one who doesn’t even know of its existence.
And yet in the end do you think he can thoroughly respect such
blindness? Don’t you feel that you are happier in a worthier sense when
you look at life with your eyes open; when you honestly take the bad
along with the good?’
She sat silent for a few minutes, apparently considering his words.
Presently he added—
‘As for your party, I think you may dance with a free conscience.
You’ve done what you could to help matters on, and you’ll do a great
deal more in the future.’
‘I’m afraid that my conscience didn’t have much to do with wanting to
give up the ball,’ she acknowledged, with a slightly guilty laugh.
‘It’s simply that I can’t bear to meet people, and feel that all the
time they’re talking to me they’re calling me in their minds “the Wheat
Princess.”’
‘That, I suppose you know, is very silly. It’s the price you have to
pay, and I haven’t much sympathy to offer. However, you need not let it
bother you; for, as a matter of fact, there will not be many men here,
who would not be wheat kings themselves if they had the chance—even
knowing beforehand all the suffering it was going to bring to this
trouble-ridden country. And now, suppose we don’t talk about wheat any
more. You’ve thought about it a good deal too much.’
‘You’re not very optimistic,’ she said.
‘Oh, well, I’m not blind. It takes an Italian to be optimistic in this
country.’
‘Do you like the Italians, or don’t you?’ she asked. ‘Sometimes you
seem to, and sometimes you act as if you despised them.’
‘Yes, certainly I like them; I was born in Italy.’
‘But you’re an American,’ she said quickly.
He laughed at her tone.
‘You surely want to be an American,’ she insisted.
‘As Henry James says, Miss Marcia, one’s country, like one’s
grandmother, is antecedent to choice.’
She studied the fire for some time without speaking, and Sybert,
leaning back lazily, studied her. Her next observation surprised him.
‘You said the other day, Mr. Sybert, that every man lived for some
idea, and I’ve been wondering what yours was.’
A curious expression flashed over his face.
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