England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; English fiction -- 19th century
'You couldn't help it. If you had tried to make me go another way, it
would only have led to unhappiness. At that time I was mad to make my
name known, and, though I loved you, I believe I could have left you
rather than give up my ambition. Mr. Redgrave used to invite people to
his house in the summer to afternoon tea, and I went there once with a
lady. Other people as well--a lot of other people. That's how I knew
the house. I was never there alone until that last evening.--Don't
shrink away from me!'
'I didn't. Go on, and be quick.'
'I suspected Sibyl from the moment you told me about her husband and Mr
Redgrave. You did, too, Harvey.'
'Leave her aside.'
'But it was because of her. I saw she was getting to dislike me, and I
thought she knew Mr. Redgrave was doing his best for me, and that she
was jealous, and would prevent him--do you understand? He was my
friend, nothing else; but _she_ would never believe that. And a few
days before my recital he seemed to lose interest, and I thought it was
her doing. Can you understand how I felt? Not jealousy, for I never
even liked him. I was living only for the hope of a success. Do you
believe me, Harvey?' 'Easily enough.'
Thereupon she related truly, without omission, the train of
circumstances that brought her to Wimbledon on the fatal night, and all
that happened until she fled away into the darkness.
'It would be silly to say I oughtn't to have gone there. Of course, I
knew all I was risking; but I felt I could give my life to detect that
woman and have her in my power.
'It's just that I don't understand. If it had been ordinary
jealousy--why, of course----'
'Men never can understand why women hate each other. She thought
herself so superior to me, and showed it in every look and word; and
all the time I knew she was a wicked hypocrite.'
'_How_ did you know that?' Rolfe broke in vehemently, staring into her
white face as a ray from the street illumined it.
'Oh, I can't tell you!' she replied, in a moaning, quivering voice. 'I
knew it--I knew it--something told me. But I don't ask you to believe
that. Only about myself--can you believe about myself?'
He replied mechanically, 'Yes.' Alma, with a sigh as much of
hopelessness as of relief, lay back and said no more.
At Notting Hill Gate they waited for a train. Alma wandered about the
platform, her head bent, silent and heeding nothing. In the railway
carriage she closed her eyes, and Harvey had to draw her attention when
it was time to alight. On entering the house she went at once upstairs.
Harvey loitered about below, and presently sat down in the study,
leaving the door ajar.
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