"Let her come next week for a day or two, if you can spare her. But
I'll not tell her that it's the last 'good-bye.' All the same, I'm
afraid she'll guess it for herself."
"Try to do her good--same as you have me," said Brendon. "You won't
speak many more words on human ears now. Let 'em be as the Lord
wills. He'll put it into your heart what to say to her. A better,
nobler woman than my wife never lived. Fearless and brave and
high-minded--I never saw the like of her and never shall. But all
the same, from the first--from our courting--there was always
something I couldn't understand. Her point of view--not all pure
godliness; yet I'd not dare to say she was ungodly in anything. But
a sort of high habit of mind that wouldn't bend to the yoke. Always
hated and still hates to call herself a miserable sinner afore the
footstool of Grace. Yet humble, and gentle, and true to my heart and
my hopes here and hereafter, as the moss is true to the stone."
"No man was ever worthy of her, Daniel."
"I know it. Tell her the meek are blessed and inherit the earth."
"And blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God. I've
never known but one woman that I could think of as able to look at
God, Daniel, and that's your wife. Don't ask me to dare to teach
her--'tis for her to teach me; and teach you too. Why should she be
fearful? She can't be. Perfect love casteth out fear. That's her
lesson to us."
Brendon considered doubtfully.
"You may be right," he said. "All the same----"
And when the future owner of Ruddyford returned home, his wife made
ready. She knew full well without words that this was her last visit
to Hilary Woodrow; and she braced her mind for the ordeal and all
that it must mean. She had long since ceased to fear that he would
speak, and when Sarah Jane and Hilary met for the last time it was
not necessary for him to inform her that their secret perished with
themselves.
"Leave it to be told in the next world, if it is right that it should
be told," he said to her. "Sometimes I think it may be a part of my
purgation and proper punishment, in some place of learning and
cleansing, that I may yet have to confess this terrible sin before my
fellow spirits--even to the spirit of Daniel himself, when his turn
comes. That seems justice, Sarah Jane, as man pictures justice in
his feeble ignorance. But at any rate I'm convinced, so far as this
life goes, that the proper course is silence. We've no right to
wreck lives by imparting our knowledge to them, if that knowledge can
only bring ceaseless suffering along with it. I've confessed my sin
to God a thousand times. But I know that both punishment and
absolution belong to the world to come, not to this."
"Like a schoolboy called up afore his master--to learn the best or
worst," she said.
"Even like that. Nothing's settled down here; nothing is finished
down here. Everything has to wait till the light touches it."
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