Sylvester lay back in his corner with an air of utter fatigue, and
closed his eyes. They travelled thus in silence for a long time. To Ella
the world seemed to have come to a disgraceful end. The dying state of
the old man to whom she was hurrying was in keeping with the general
finality of things. She suffered a horrible humiliation too deep for
coherent thought. Gradually, however, the sight of Sylvester opposite,
cold and stern, acted upon her like an irritant. At one moment she was
seized with an hysterical impulse to scream. She mastered it, fighting
with scornful violence. Resentment began to burn within her, first dull,
then increasing in intensity to fierceness. The flame fed a smouldering
horror scarcely as yet realised. Roderick was in a police cell that
night. He would be tried on a disgraceful charge. The result would be
imprisonment. Clearer and clearer grew the significance of the term. As
a woman in touch with the thinking world, she had interested herself in
contemporary social problems. Our prison system had been among those
in which she had played the pretty part of amateur reformer. As the
Honorary Secretary of a society which had rapidly burned itself out
with excessive zeal, she had learned many of the hateful facts. For a
fortnight the fate of the tenderly nurtured gentleman condemned to the
unutterable torture of imprisonment had been a nightmare. Her aunt had
rediscovered a teacher of music, once a well-known singer, now voiceless
through illness, Yvonne Latour, who had married a man called Joyce,
a cultivated gentleman who deservedly had passed through the wintry
sorrows of the gaol, and Yvonne had told her what they meant. Her own
troubles, the Walden Art Colony, her relations with Roderick, had put
the subject out of her mind; but now the recollection of these things
grew more vivid every moment. Her own benumbing sense of humiliation
was lost in the new shudder. Liar she knew Roderick to be; that he was
a forger, reason forbade her to doubt. Yet by her yielding to his kisses
that day, she had given him, as it were, some share of her flesh, and
her own flesh quivered at the contaminating touch of the gaol.
The train thundered on. The windows of the carriage were opaque with
steam. Opposite sat Sylvester like a sphinx, his cap drawn over his
eyes, so that she could not see whether they were open or shut. Suddenly
the brake grated and the wheels dragged beneath the carriage, and
the train stopped with a jerk at a little, vaguely lighted station.
Sylvester looked up mechanically and found the girl's eyes, deep and
dark behind her veil, fixed upon him. She felt impelled to speak, yet
altered her appeal at the instant the prearranged words were about to
leave her lips. Instinctively she sought to wound him.
“If Uncle Matthew is dying, how could you leave his side? I thought you
at least loved him.”
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