Bildungsromans; Midlands (England) -- Fiction; Young men -- Fiction
A cousin of the rector’s used to come in the hunting season—a Lady
Crystabel, lady in her own right. The second year I was there she came
in June. There wasn’t much company, so she used to talk to me—I used to
read then—and she used to pretend to be so childish and unknowing, and
would get me telling her things, and talking to her, and I was hot on
things. We must play tennis together, and ride together, and I must row
her down the river. She said we were in the wilderness and could do as
we liked. She made me wear flannels and soft clothes. She was very fine
and frank and unconventional—ripping, I thought her. All the summer she
stopped on. I should meet her in the garden early in the morning when I
came from a swim in the river—it was cleared and deepened on
purpose—and she’d blush and make me walk with her. I can remember I
used to stand and dry myself on the bank full where she might see me—I
was mad on her—and she was madder on me.
We went to some caves in Derbyshire once, and she would wander from the
rest, and loiter, and, for a game, we played a sort of hide and seek
with the party. They thought we’d gone, and they went and locked the
door. Then she pretended to be frightened and clung to me, and said
what would they think, and hid her face in my coat. I took her and
kissed her, and we made it up properly. I found out afterwards—she
actually told me—she’d got the idea from a sloppy French novel—the
Romance of A Poor Young Man. I was the Poor Young Man.
We got married. She gave me a living she had in her parsonage, and we
went to live at her Hall. She wouldn’t let me out of her sight.
Lord!—we were an infatuated couple—and she would choose to view me in
an aesthetic light. I was Greek statues for her, bless you: Croton,
Hercules, I don’t know what! She had her own way too much—I let her do
as she liked with me.
Then gradually she got tired—it took her three years to be really
glutted with me. I had a physique then—for that matter I have now.”
He held out his arm to me, and bade me try his muscle. I was startled.
The hard flesh almost filled his sleeve.
“Ah,” he continued, “You don’t know what it is to have the pride of a
body like mine. But she wouldn’t have children—no, she wouldn’t—said
she daren’t. That was the root of the difference at first. But she
cooled down, and if you don’t know the pride of my body you’d never
know my humiliation. I tried to remonstrate—and she looked simply
astounded at my cheek. I never got over that amazement.
She began to get souly. A poet got hold of her, and she began to affect
Burne-Jones—or Waterhouse—it was Waterhouse—she was a lot like one of
his women—Lady of Shalott, I believe. At any rate, she got souly, and I
was her animal—son animal—son boeuf. I put up with that for above a
year. Then I got some servants’ clothes and went.
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