Bildungsromans; Midlands (England) -- Fiction; Young men -- Fiction
“Isn’t it—fearful!” she replied softly.
“No!—why is it?”
“It makes you feel—Why have you brought it?”
“I wanted you to see it.”
Already I felt relieved, seeing that she too was caught in the spell.
George came and bent over my shoulder. I could feel the heavy warmth of
him.
“Good Lord!” he drawled, half amused. The children came crowding to
see, and Emily closed the book.
“I shall be late—Hurry up, Dave!” and she went to wash her hands before
going to school.
“Give it me, will you!” George asked, putting out his hand for the
book. I gave it him, and he sat down to look at the drawings. When
Mollie crept near to look, he angrily shouted to her to get away. She
pulled a mouth, and got her hat over her wild brown curls. Emily came
in ready for school.
“I’m going—good-bye,” she said, and she waited hesitatingly. I moved to
get my cap. He looked up with a new expression in his eyes, and said:
“Are you going?—wait a bit—I’m coming.”
I waited.
“Oh, very well—good-bye,” said Emily bitterly, and she departed.
When he had looked long enough he got up and we went out. He kept his
finger between the pages of the book as he carried it. We went towards
the fallow land without speaking. There he sat down on a bank, leaning
his back against a holly-tree, and saying, very calmly:
“There’s no need to be in any hurry now——” whereupon he proceeded to
study the illustrations.
“You know,” he said at last, “I do want her.”
I started at the irrelevance of this remark, and said, “Who?”
“Lettie. We’ve got notice, did you know?”
I started to my feet this time with amazement.
“Notice to leave?—what for?”
“Rabbits I expect. I wish she’d have me, Cyril.”
“To leave Strelley Mill!” I repeated.
“That’s it—and I’m rather glad. But do you think she might have me,
Cyril?”
“What a shame! Where will you go? And you lie there joking——!”
“I don’t. Never mind about the damned notice. I want her more than
anything.—And the more I look at these naked lines, the more I want
her. It’s a sort of fine sharp feeling, like these curved lines. I
don’t know what I’m saying—but do you think she’d have me? Has she seen
these pictures?”
“No.”
“If she did perhaps she’d want me—I mean she’d feel it clear and sharp
coming through her.”
“I’ll show her and see.”
“I’d been sort of thinking about it—since father had that notice. It
seemed as if the ground was pulled from under our feet. I never felt so
lost. Then I began to think of her, if she’d have me—but not clear,
till you showed me those pictures. I must have her if I can—and I must
have something. It’s rather ghostish to have the road suddenly smudged
out, and all the world anywhere, nowhere for you to go. I must get
something sure soon, or else I feel as if I should fall from somewhere
and hurt myself. I’ll ask her.”
I looked at him as he lay there under the holly-tree, his face all
dreamy and boyish, very unusual.
“You’ll ask Lettie?” said I, “When—how?”
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