Bildungsromans; Midlands (England) -- Fiction; Young men -- Fiction
I wandered around Nethermere, which had now forgotten me. The daffodils
under the boat-house continued their golden laughter, and nodded to one
another in gossip, as I watched them, never for a moment pausing to
notice me. The yellow reflection of daffodils among the shadows of grey
willow in the water trembled faintly as they told haunted tales in the
gloom. I felt like a child left out of the group of my playmates. There
was a wind running across Nethermere, and on the eager water blue and
glistening grey shadows changed places swiftly. Along the shore the
wild birds rose, flapping in expostulation as I passed, peewits mewing
fiercely round my head, while two white swans lifted their glistening
feathers till they looked like grand double water-lilies, laying back
their orange beaks among the petals, and fronting me with haughty
resentment, charging towards me insolently.
I wanted to be recognised by something. I said to myself that the
dryads were looking out for me from the wood’s edge. But as I advanced
they shrank, and glancing wistfully, turned back like pale flowers
falling in the shadow of the forest. I was a stranger, an intruder.
Among the bushes a twitter of lively birds exclaimed upon me. Finches
went leaping past in bright flashes, and a robin sat and asked rudely:
“Hello! Who are you?”
The bracken lay sere under the trees, broken and chavelled by the
restless wild winds of the long winter.
The trees caught the wind in their tall netted twigs, and the young
morning wind moaned at its captivity. As I trod the discarded
oak-leaves and the bracken they uttered their last sharp gasps, pressed
into oblivion. The wood was roofed with a wide young sobbing sound, and
floored with a faint hiss like the intaking of the last breath.
Between, was all the glad out-peeping of buds and anemone flowers and
the rush of birds. I, wandering alone, felt them all, the anguish of
the bracken fallen face-down in defeat, the careless dash of the birds,
the sobbing of the young wind arrested in its haste, the trembling,
expanding delight of the buds. I alone among them could hear the whole
succession of chords.
The brooks talked on just the same, just as gladly, just as
boisterously as they had done when I had netted small, glittering fish
in the rest-pools. At Strelley Mill a servant girl in a white cap, and
white apron-bands, came running out of the house with purple
prayer-books, which she gave to the elder of two finicking girls who
sat disconsolately with their black-silked mother in the governess cart
at the gate, ready to go to church. Near Woodside there was barbed-wire
along the path, and at the end of every riding it was tarred on the
tree-trunks, “Private.”
I had done with the valley of Nethermere. The valley of Nethermere had
cast me out many years before, while I had fondly believed it cherished
me in memory.
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