Bildungsromans; Midlands (England) -- Fiction; Young men -- Fiction
Swineshed Farm, where the Renshaws lived, stood quite alone among its
fields, hidden from the highway and from everything. The lane leading
up to it was deep and unsunned. On my right, I caught glimpses through
the hedge of the corn-fields, where the shocks of wheat stood like
small yellow-sailed ships in a widespread flotilla. The upper part of
the field was cleared. I heard the clank of a wagon and the voices of
men, and I saw the high load of sheaves go lurching, rocking up the
incline to the stackyard.
The lane debouched into a close-bitten field, and out of this empty
land the farm rose up with its buildings like a huddle of old, painted
vessels floating in still water. White fowls went stepping discreetly
through the mild sunshine and the shadow. I leaned my bicycle against
the grey, silken doors of the old coach-house. The place was breathing
with silence. I hesitated to knock at the open door. Emily came. She
was rich as always with her large beauty, and stately now with the
stateliness of a strong woman six months gone with child.
She exclaimed with surprise, and I followed her into the kitchen,
catching a glimpse of the glistening pans and the white wood baths as I
passed through the scullery. The kitchen was a good-sized, low room
that through long course of years had become absolutely a home. The
great beams of the ceiling bowed easily, the chimney-seat had a bit of
dark-green curtain, and under the high mantel-piece was another low
shelf that the men could reach with their hands as they sat in the
ingle-nook. There the pipes lay. Many generations of peaceful men and
fruitful women had passed through the room, and not one but had added a
new small comfort; a chair in the right place, a hook, a stool, a
cushion, a certain pleasing cloth for the sofa covers, a shelf of
books. The room, that looked so quiet and crude, was a home evolved
through generations to fit the large bodies of the men who dwelled in
it, and the placid fancy of the women. At last, it had an
individuality. It was the home of the Renshaws, warm, lovable, serene.
Emily was in perfect accord with its brownness, its shadows, its ease.
I, as I sat on the sofa under the window, felt rejected by the kind
room. I was distressed with a sense of ephemerality, of pale, erratic
fragility.
Emily, in her full-blooded beauty, was at home. It is rare now to feel
a kinship between a room and the one who inhabits it, a close bond of
blood relation. Emily had at last found her place, and had escaped from
the torture of strange, complex modern life. She was making a pie, and
the flour was white on her brown arms. She pushed the tickling hair
from her face with her arm, and looked at me with tranquil pleasure, as
she worked the paste in the yellow bowl. I was quiet, subdued before
her.
“You are very happy?” I said.
“Ah very!” she replied. “And you?—you are not, you look worn.”
“Yes,” I replied. “I am happy enough. I am living my life.”
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