The will to live (Les Roquevillard) : $b A novelBordeaux, Henry
General
The will to live (Les Roquevillard) : $b A novel
Bordeaux, Henry
Elopement -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; France -- Fiction; French fiction -- Translations into English
For if he had not deserved all the ignominious accusations which Mr.
Frasne hurled at him, he was guilty none the less toward his family
for having believed he had the right to give them up. He accused his
mistress for her imprudence in thus dishonouring him, for whose love he
had been degraded. But was it really her love that had degraded him? He
attributed all his sensibilities to love, as the harmonies in those
legendary lyres that hung in trees were due the wind--love which he had
so coveted in his at once studious and ecstatic youth, and which had
passed across his heart as the warm winds across the lyres’ strings
that waited for them. And he blamed it for enthusiasms and weaknesses
that had their source in him alone. In his distracted retrospect across
his life he summoned up the memory of Edith’s eyes, her mouth, her
every movement. Yes, his heart had been hung up to catch this song of
her grace, the caresses of her voice, the flame of her eyes. He would
leave the woman, but he would not disown his love.
And, besides, what had he to reproach Edith with? What did she suspect,
though it was through her fault, of this lamentable drama in which a
whole race rolled in the dust? Nothing, surely. She had taken this
money as she had stolen hearts, without meaning any ill, and believing
she was within her rights. If he warned her of his danger, she would
be astonished, and without hesitation, no doubt, she would return to
Chambéry to proclaim her lover’s innocence to his judges. He did not
want to profit by such generosity. He thought it better that she should
always remain in ignorance, that she should run no risk for herself.
He would leave this evening--no, not this evening, to-morrow morning,
without saying anything to her, after having made good the amount of her
wrongfully taken dowry, so that she should not want for anything.
But what was to become of her, thus abandoned? Had he not also some
duty toward her, whose whole life was love? He tried to imagine her
future. He saw her cruelly torn, cursing him and weeping for him by
turns, calling for him in the sacred wood, among the chapels, in all
the places that had been the witness of their tenderness. He shared
truly in her agony. However, there was so much of life’s resource in
her, such a frenzy of living, that she would hold out against her fate
in the end and find herself. Had he not seen her rise against him,
trembling and revolting against him, when he had spoken to her of
dying? Yes, she would find herself again, she would resist fate and
live. And he felt his heart yearn at the thought of her being loved
again, the thought that perhaps some day this devouring flame which
consumed her should burn again for some one else.
“No, not that,” he sighed; “I don’t wish that.”
It was the last struggle.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account