Pierce made no answer. His face seemed fixed in a frown. His was a
tragic past; he could not bear to think of it, much less could he speak
of it. Noting that the oarsman appeared to be weary, Pierce volunteered
to relieve him, an offer which was quickly accepted. As he seated
himself and prepared to fall to work Laure advised him:
"Better count your money and see if it's all there."
He did as directed. "It's all here," he assured her.
She flashed him a smile, then crept into the place he had vacated and
drew up the robe snugly. Pierce wondered why she eyed him with that
peculiar intentness. Not until she had fallen asleep did he suspect
with a guilty start that the robe was hers and that she had patiently
waited for him to finish his sleep while she herself was drooping with
fatigue. This suspicion gave him a disagreeable shock; he began to give
some thought to the nature of his new surroundings. They were of a sort
to warrant consideration; for a long time he rowed mechanically, a
frown upon his brow.
In the first place, he was amazed to find how bravely he bore the
anguish of a breaking heart, and how little he desired to do away with
himself. The world, strangely enough, still remained a pleasant place,
and already the fret for new adventure was stirring in him. He was not
happy--thoughts of Hilda awoke real pain, and his sense of injury
burned him like a brand--nevertheless, he could not make himself feel
so utterly hopeless, so blackly despondent as the circumstances plainly
warranted. He was, on the whole, agreeably surprised at his powers of
resistance and of recuperation, both physical and emotional. For
instance, he should by all means experience a wretched reaction from
his inebriety; as a matter of fact, he had never felt better in his
life; his head was clear, he was ravenously hungry. Then, too, he was
not altogether hopeless; it seemed quite probable that he and Hilda
would again meet, in which event there was no telling what might
happen. Evidently liquor agreed with him; in his case it was not only
an anodyne, but also a stimulus, spurring him to optimistic thought and
independent action. Yes, whisky roused a fellow's manhood. It must be
so, otherwise he would never have summoned the strength to snap those
chains which bound him to the Countess Courteau, or the reckless
courage to embark upon an enterprise so foreign to his tastes and to
his training as this one.
His memory of the later incidents of the night before was somewhat
indistinct, as was his recollection of the scene when he had served his
notice upon the Countess. Of this much he felt certain, however, he had
done the right thing in freeing himself from a situation that reflected
discredit upon his manhood. Whether he had acted wisely by casting in
his lot with Morris Best's outfit was another matter altogether. He was
quite sure he had not acted wisely, but there is a satisfaction at
certain times in doing what we know to be the wrong thing.
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