Love stories, German; Sisters -- Fiction; Suicide victims -- Fiction
"At first joy suffused my face, for I thought she had regained
consciousness. 'Martha!' I jumped up and grasped her hand.
"'I have put everything out in readiness--shirts and stockings and
shoes, so that a blind man could find them in his sleep. And you need
not take any measurements either--make no compliments--make no
compliments.' And all the time she stared at me with glassy eyes, as if
she saw a ghost; then suddenly she uttered a piercing shriek and cried,
'Roll the stones away from my body they are crushing me. Why have you
buried me under stones?'
"I took the thinnest sheet I could find and spread it over her in place
of the coverlet; but even that brought her no relief. She screamed and
talked incessantly, and between whiles she muttered eagerly to herself,
like one who is learning something off by heart.
"Like this an hour must have passed. I sat in front of my table and
stared at her; for I was in a ferment of terror lest any moment might
bring some new, still more horrible development. From time to time,
when she calmed down a little, I felt my limbs relax; then I closed my
eyes and let myself sink back, and each time I had the sensation as if
I were sinking into Robert's arms. But there hardly remained even a
dull feeling, as if I were thereby committing any wrong; my weariness
was too intense. I also had a sensation as if bubbles were bursting in
my head, and roses opening out and always putting forth new wreaths of
blossoms; then again there was a hissing sound from one ear to the
other, as if some one had run a fuse right through my head and lighted
it.
"In this condition of nervous over-excitement, tossed hither and
thither between terrified starting up and relaxation, Robert found me,
when, towards midnight, he entered the room. He had intended to lie
down on his bed for a short time, and then to watch for the rest of the
night together with me; but Martha's screams had scared him too.
"When I saw him, all my exhaustion was as if wiped away; I felt how a
new stream of blood shot through my body, and I jumped up to go towards
him.
"'Try to rest a little.' he said, looking down at me with tired,
swollen eyes; 'you will require all your strength.'
"I shook my head and pointed to my sister, who was just flinging her
hands about, as if in her delirium she were trying to tear me from his
side.
"'You are right,' he continued. 'Who could be calm enough to rest with
this picture before his eyes.' And then he planted himself with clasped
hands in front of the bed, bent down towards her and imprinted a soft
kiss upon her wax-like forehead.
"'That is how he kissed me too!' a voice within me cried.
"Thereupon he sat down at the foot of the bed, so close to my chair
that the arm which he rested upon the slab of the table almost touched
my shoulder.
"With the gloomy brooding of despair he stared across at her.
"'Come to yourself, Robert!' I whispered to him, 'all may be well yet.'
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