Love stories, German; Sisters -- Fiction; Suicide victims -- Fiction
"I half undressed and threw myself on the sofa. The clock struck
eleven--it struck half-past eleven. Still his footsteps resounded
through the house. But the later it was, the more did it grow
impossible for me to carry out my resolve.
"What if a servant should spy upon me--should see me stealing into our
guest's room! My heart stood still at the thought.
"The clock struck twelve. I opened the window and looked out upon the
world. Everything seemed asleep, even from Robert's and Martha's rooms
no light shone forth. Both were burying their sorrow and anguish in the
lap of darkness.
"With the night wind that beat against the casement, the words droned
in my ears: 'You must--you must!' And like a soft sweet melody it
coaxed and cajoled at intervals: 'Thus you will see him again--will
feel his hand in yours--will hear his voice--perhaps even his laugh; do
you not want to bring him happiness--the happiness of his life?'
"With a sudden impulse I shut the casement, wrapped myself in my
dressing-gown, took my slippers in my hand and stole out into the dark
corridor.
"Ah, how my heart beat, how my blood coursed through my temples! I
staggered--I was obliged to support myself by the walls.
"Now I stood outside his door. Even yet his footsteps shook the boards.
But the noise of his heavy tread had ceased. He had evidently divested
himself of his boots.
"'You must not knock!' it struck me suddenly, 'that would not escape
Martha.'
"My hand grasped the door-handle. I shuddered. I do not know how I
opened the door. I felt as if some one else had done it for me.
"Before me the outline of his mighty figure----.
"A low cry from his lips--a bound towards me. Then I felt both my hands
clutched--felt a hot wave of breath near my forehead.
"At the first moment the mad idea may have darted through his brain,
that Martha had in such impetuous manner bethought herself of her old
love--in the next he had already recognised me.
"'For Heaven's sake, child,' he cried, 'whatever has possessed you?
What brings you to me? Has no one possibly seen you, say--has no one
seen you?'
"I shook my head. He still evidently thinks you very stupid, I thought
to myself, and drew a deep breath, for I felt the terrors of my venture
were disappearing from my soul.
"He set me free and hastened to make a light. I groped my way to the
sofa, and dropped down in a corner.
"The light of the candle flared up--it dazzled me. I turned towards the
wall and covered my face. A feeling of weakness, a longing to cling to
something, had come over me. I was so glad to be with him, that I
forgot all else.
"'Olga, my dear, good child,' he urged, 'speak out, tell me what you
want of me?'
"I looked up at him. I saw his swarthy, serious face, in which the
day's trouble had graven deep furrows, and became lost in its
contemplation.
"'What do you want? Do you bring me news of Martha?'
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