Love stories, German; Sisters -- Fiction; Suicide victims -- Fiction
"'Olga, and this is true?' he cried, quite beside himself with joy,
'can you swear to me that it is the truth?'
"I nodded affirmatively, for the tremor that ran deliciously through my
veins had robbed me of speech.
"'God bless you for this, you wise, brave girl,' he cried, and pressed
me so firmly to his breast that I could hardly draw my breath. I let my
head drop upon his shoulder and closed my eyes. And then I started as I
felt his lips upon mine. It seemed to me as if a flame had touched me.
And again and again he kissed me, quite senseless with gratitude and
happiness.
"I kept thinking: 'Oh, that this moment might never end!' And tremor
upon tremor shook my frame; quite limp I hung in his arms. Only once
the idea darted through my mind: 'May you return his kisses?' But I did
not dare to do so.
"How long he held me thus I do not know, I only felt my head suddenly
fall heavily against the sofa-ledge. Then the pain awakened me as from
a deep, deep dream.
"I lay there motionless and gasped for breath. He noticed it and cried
in alarm, 'You are growing quite pale, child; have you hurt yourself?'
"I nodded, and remarked that it was nothing, and would soon pass over.
Ah! I knew too well that it would not pass over, that it would be
graven in flaming letters upon my heart and upon my senses, that on
many a long, cold, winter's night I should I find warmth in the glow of
this moment, in this glow which was only the reflection of love for
another.
"I knew all that, and felt as if I must succumb beneath the weight of
this consciousness, but I braced myself up, for I had sufficiently
learnt to keep myself under control.
"'Robert,' said I, 'I want to give you a piece of advice, and then let
me go, for I am tired!'
"'Speak, speak!' he cried, 'I will blindly do whatever you wish.'
"Then, as I looked at him, it made me sigh with mingled pain and bliss,
for the thought kept coming to me: 'He has held you in his arms.' I
should have liked best of all to sink back once more with closed eyes
into the sofa-corner, and simulate fainting a little longer, but I
pulled myself together and said: 'I am pretty certain that Martha will
not close her eyes to-night, but be on the watch to see you go. She
will want to look after you; and as her room lies towards the garden
she will either go into yours or the one adjoining. When you get
downstairs wait a little while, and then do as if you had forgotten
something, and then--and then----' I could not go on, for all too
mighty within me was the sobbing and rejoicing: 'He has held you in his
arms.'
"I feared that I should no longer be able to master my
excitement--without a word of farewell I turned to take to flight
precipitately. When I opened the door--Martha stood before me. She
stood there, barefooted, half-dressed, as pale as death, and trembling.
She was unable to stir; her strength probably failed her.
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