England -- Fiction; Magic -- Fiction; South Africa -- Fiction
Now that he had been away from England for a year or so, many things
connected with his home life had grown rather faint amid the daily
change and activity of his new life. The rush of fresh impressions had
to a great extent overlaid the old ones, and Dorothy and Mr. Cardus and
all the old Kesterwick existence and surroundings seemed faint and far
away. They were indeed rapidly assuming that unreality which in time
the wanderer finds gather round his old associations. He feels that
they know him no more; very likely he imagines that they have forgotten
him, and so they become like the shades of the dead. It is almost a
shock to such an one to come back and find, after an absence of many
years, that though he has been living a rapid vigorous life, and
storing his time with many acts, good, bad, and indifferent; though he
thinks that he has changed so completely, and developed greatly in one
direction or another, yet the old spots, the old familiar surroundings,
and the old dear faces have changed hardly one whit. They have been
living their quiet English life, in which sensation, incident, and
excitement are things unfamiliar, and have varied not at all.
Most people, as a matter of fact, change very little except in so far
as they are influenced by the cyclic variations of their life, the
passage from youth to maturity, and from maturity to age, and the
attendant modes of thought and action befitting each period. But even
then the change is superficial rather than real. What the child is,
that the middle-aged person and the old man will be also. The reason of
this appears to be sufficiently obvious: the unchanging personality
that grows not old, the animating spiritual “ego,” is there, and
practically identical at all periods of life. The body, the brain, and
the subtler intellect may all vary according to the circumstances,
mostly physical, of personal existence; but the effect that the passage
of a few years, more or less active or stormy, can produce upon a
principle so indestructible, so immeasurably ancient, and the inheritor
of so far-reaching a destiny as we believe the individual human soul to
be, surely must be small.
Already Ernest began to find it something of a labour to indite
epistles to people in England, and yet he had the pen of a ready
writer. The links that bound them together were fast breaking loose.
Eva, and Eva alone, remained clear and real to the vision of his mind.
She was always with him; and to her, at any period of his life, he
never found difficulty in writing. For, in truth, their very natures
were interwoven, and the _rapport_ between them was not produced merely
by the pressure of external circumstances, or by the fact of continual
contact and mutual attraction arising from physical causes, such as the
natural leaning of youth to youth and beauty to beauty.
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