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The same thing applies conversely. If a man’s religious belief is
emasculated, he becomes suspicious of the “sweetest and best;” he grows
cynical, and no longer puts faith in superlatives. From atheism there
is but a small step to misogyny, or rather to that disbelief in
humanity which embraces a profounder constituent disbelief in its
feminine section, and in turn, as already said, the misogynist walks
daily along the edge of atheism. Of course there is a way out of these
discouraging results. If the mind that suffers and falls through its
suffering be of the truly noble order, it may in time come to see that
this world is a world not of superlatives, but of the most arid
positives, with here and there a little comparative oasis to break the
monotony of its general outline. Its owner may learn that the fault lay
with him, for believing too much, for trusting too far, for setting up
as an idol a creature exactly like himself, only several degrees lower
beneath proof; and at last he may come to see that though “sweetests
and bests” are chimerical, there are women in the world who may fairly
be called “sweet and good.” Or, to return to the converse side of the
picture, it may occur to our young gentleman that although Providence
starts us in the world with a full inherited or indoctrinated belief in
a given religion, that is not what Providence understands by faith.
Faith, perfect faith, is only to be won by struggle, and in most
cultivated minds by the passage through the dim, mirage-clad land of
disbelief. The true believer is he who has trodden down disbelief, not
he who has run away from it. When we have descended from the height of
our childhood, when we have entertained Apollyon, and having considered
what he has to say, given him battle and routed him in the plain, then,
and not till then, can we say with guileless hearts, “Lord, I believe,”
and feel no need to add the sadly qualifying words, “help Thou mine
unbelief.” Now these are more or less principles of human nature. They
may not be universally true, probably nothing is—that is, as we define
and understand truth. But they apply to the majority of those cases
which fall strictly within their limits. Among others they applied
rather strikingly to Ernest Kershaw. Eva’s desertion struck his belief
in womanhood to the ground, and soon his religion lay in the dust
beside it. Of this his life for some years after that event gave
considerable evidence. He took to evil ways, he forgot his better self.
He raced horses, he devoted himself with great success to love-affairs
that he would have done better to leave alone. Sometimes, to his shame
be it said, he drank—for the excitement of drinking, not for the love
of it. In short, he gave himself and all his fund of energy up to any
and every excitement and dissipation he could command, and he managed
to command a good many. Travelling rapidly from place to place in South
Africa, he was well known and well liked in all. Now he was at
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