The Woman Who Vowed (The Demetrian)Harding, Ellison
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The Woman Who Vowed (The Demetrian)
Harding, Ellison
Science fiction; Utopias -- Fiction
From the moment Lydia had decided to accept the mission, there seemed to
grow in her a strength that was not her own. She rose from the couch, on
which she had thrown herself upon leaving Iréné, without a symptom of
her old irresolution; she stood without sense of fatigue while the
yellow shroud was so draped about her as to hide her face to the utmost
possible, for though she knew she could not escape recognition an
instinct in her set her upon the attempt to do so; and when in the
procession she entered the portals of the temple, a glow moved up from
her heart to her head that deeply flushed her countenance as she heard
the whisper "Lydia" grow from mouth to mouth into an almost angry
protestation. Nevertheless, she felt sure now that she was right; it was
easier as well as nobler to make the sacrifice than to yield. She walked
firmly, with head erect, until she sank upon her knees before the altar,
and the choir's triumphant processional was subdued in low responses to
the chant of the high priest.
At last he turned to her and lifted his hands in mute suggestion that
she should bring her tribute to the goddess. A Demetrian presented her
the flint which was to symbolize the strength of her sacrifice; the
priest gave her the steel that symbolized its cruelty; and striking one
against the other she lit a spark that added a new flame to the altar.
This was the irrevocable act. A great sigh mingled with many sobs broke
from those present in the temple; but _her_ eyes remained dry, and at
the close of the ceremony she walked back to the cloister as firmly as
she had left it.
But once returned, there came upon her the inevitable reaction; she
discovered that the strength which had come upon her suddenly could no
less suddenly forsake her; she threw herself upon a couch and asked to
be left alone. As the door closed upon her attendant she was half
astonished, half afraid to find sobs invade her and tears gush from her
eyes. What did it all mean? Had she a will of her own, or was she merely
the arena upon which instincts, half of heredity, half of education,
were fighting out their battle, independently of her? She seemed to have
become a mere spectator of it; alas, she must also be its victim. She
lay sobbing until the sobs slowly died away, leaving her exhausted, and
at last she slept like a tired child.
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