And then--she knew Lord Holme; knew what attracted him, what stirred
him, what moved him to excitement, what was likely to hold him. She felt
sure that he and such men as he yield the homage they would refuse to
the angel to the siren. Instead of seeking the angel within herself,
therefore, she sought the siren. Instead of striving to develope that
part of her which was spiritual, she fixed all her attention upon that
part of her which was fleshly, which was physical. She neglected the
flame and began to make pretty patterns with the ashes.
Robin came to bid her good-bye before leaving London for Rome. The
weeping woman was gone. He looked into the hard, white face of a woman
who smiled. They talked rather constrainedly for a few minutes. Then
suddenly he said:
“Once it was a painted window, now it’s an iron shutter.”
He got up from his chair and clasped his hands together behind his back.
“What on earth do you mean?” she asked, still smiling.
“Your face,” he answered. “One could see you obscurely before. One can
see nothing now.”
“You talk great nonsense, Robin. It’s a good thing you’re going back to
Rome.”
“At least I shall find the spirit of beauty there,” he said, almost with
bitterness. “Over here it is treated as if it were Jezebel. It’s trodden
down. It’s thrown to the dogs.”
“Poor spirit!”
She laughed lightly.
“Do you understand what they’re saying of you?” he went on.
“Where?”
“All over London.”
“Perhaps.”
“But--do you?”
“Perhaps I don’t care to.”
“They’re saying--‘Poor thing! But it’s her own fault.’”
There was a silence. In it he looked at her hard, mercilessly. She
returned his gaze, still smiling.
“And it is your own fault,” he went on after a moment. “If you had
been yourself she couldn’t have insulted you first and humiliated you
afterwards. Oh, how I hate it! And yet--yet there are moments when I am
like the others, when I feel--‘She has deserved it.’”
“When will you be in Rome?” she said.
“And even now,” he continued, ignoring her remark, “even now, what are
you doing? Oh, Viola, you’re a prey to the modern madness for crawling
in the dirt instead of walking upright in the sun. You might be a
goddess and you prefer to be an insect. Isn’t it mad of you? Isn’t it?”
He was really excited, really passionate. His face showed that. There
was fire in his eyes. His lips worked convulsively when he was not
speaking. And yet there was just a faint ring of the accomplished
orator’s music in his voice, a music which suggests a listening ear--and
that ear the orator’s own.
Perhaps she heard it. At any rate his passionate attack did not seem to
move her.
“I prefer to be what I am,” was all she said.
“What you are! But you don’t know what you are.”
“And how can you pretend to know?” she asked. “Is a man more subtle
about a woman than she is about herself?”
He did not answer for a moment. Then he said bluntly:
“Promise me one thing before I go away.”
“I don’t know. What is it?”
“Promise me not to--not to--”
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