I was standing behind my wife, and a change of position would have
meant coming very close to Mme. de H--, whose manœuvres completely
non-plussed me. It was very evident that she intended to make no
advance to Raymonde, who, paralysed with fear, had become so pale that
she kept up only with difficulty. She was exposed to public gaze like
the little Christian martyrs of old, exhibited in full view before they
were thrown to the wild beasts at the Coliseum. And I read contempt for
me in the eyes of Pierre Ducal, who stood looking at me.
As soon as Raymonde gained her self-control she stepped forward and
heroically extended her hand to Mme. de H--. As she did so, the picture
of it all impressed itself on my mind: her beautiful profile looked
like an alabaster bas-relief of a saint, with a halo about her head.
But this fleeting image quickly faded from my mind in the contemplation
of the simplicity of the situation which I had feared would be so
complex.
“She knows nothing,” I assured myself, “how could she know? One always
unnecessarily exaggerates the importance of things which do not happen
and never will. It is a vicious habit to worry.”
On the other hand one often minimises the import of incidents, as was
the case with me in this instance, because I could not understand
the magnanimity of which my wife was capable. We are prone to forget
bullets which have missed their mark, and, their danger once averted,
promptly disregard their deadly power.
A concert was to be given during this evening of which I am writing.
Mme. de H--, who was playing a game which I did not understand, invited
me to a chair which she had reserved for me. No one seemed to take
any notice of this fact, for other dramas, some suspected and others
definitely known, had absorbed the general attention.
I remained with her even during the intermission, while my wife sat
alone several feet away.
“Now that she has forgiven Ducal, he will surely go and talk to her,”
I thought; and I even hoped that he would, in order that she might not
appear so completely ignored.
But Ducal did not approach her. Withheld by his respect for her, he did
not presume that her pardon gave him the right to address her. And he
left without a word to her. What a lesson it was for me to realise that
her divine forgiveness had converted the heart of so hard a cynic as
Pierre Ducal.
When we returned home, I, with my consummate egotism, desired most
condescendingly to express my approval of her conduct. Had she not
behaved well? And I, I was very much relieved and indeed happy, and yet
I could not bring myself to tell her what I had planned, for I read an
expression in her eyes which seemed to say:
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