My heart is sore for you. At least you know what you have been to him; how he cherished and admired you; how he was never so pleased as when he spoke of you; with what a boy's love, up to the last, he loved you. This surely is a consolation. Yours is the cruel part--to survive; you must try and not grudge to him his better fortune, to go first. It is the sad part of such relations that one must remain and suffer; I cannot see my poor Jenkin without you. Nor you indeed without him; but you may try to rejoice that he is spared that extremity. Perhaps I (as I was so much his confidant) know even better than you can do what your loss would have been to him; he never spoke of you but his face changed; it was--you were--his religion. I write by this post to Austin and to the Academy.--Yours most sincerely, ROBERT LOUIS STEVENSON. TO MRS. FLEEMING JENKIN [_Skerryvore, Bournemouth, June 1885_.] MY DEAR MRS. JENKIN,--I should have written sooner, but we are in a bustle, and I have been very tired, though still well. Your very kind note was most welcome to me. I shall be very much pleased to have you call me Louis, as he has now done for so many years. Sixteen, you say? is it so long? It seems too short now; but of that we cannot judge, and must not complain. I wish that either I or my wife could do anything for you; when we can, you will, I am sure, command us. I trust that my notice gave you as little pain as was possible. I found I had so much to say, that I preferred to keep it for another place and make but a note in the Academy. To try to draw my friend at greater length, and say what he was to me and his intimates, what a good influence in life and what an example, is a desire that grows upon me. It was strange, as I wrote the note, how his old tests and criticisms haunted me; and it reminded me afresh with every few words how much I owe to him. I had a note from Henley, very brief and very sad. We none of us yet feel the loss; but we know what he would have said and wished. Do you know that Dew Smith has two photographs of him, neither very bad? and one giving a lively, though not flattering air of him in conversation? If you have not got them, would you like me to write to Dew and ask him to give you proofs? I was so pleased that he and my wife made friends; that is a great pleasure. We found and have preserved one fragment (the head) of the drawing he made and tore up when he was last here. He had promised to come and stay with us this summer. May we not hope, at least, some time soon to have one from you?--Believe me, my dear Mrs. Jenkin, with the most real sympathy, your sincere friend, ROBERT LOUIS STEVENSON. Dear me, what happiness I owe to both of you! TO C. HOWARD CARRINGTON In answer to an inquiry from a correspondent not personally known to him, who had by some means heard of the _Great North Road_ project. _Skerryvore, Bournemouth, June 9th [1885]._