The works of the Rev. John Wesley, Vol. 10 (of 32)Wesley, John
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The works of the Rev. John Wesley, Vol. 10 (of 32)
Wesley, John
Methodist Church; Theology -- Early works to 1800; Theology -- History -- 18th century
He heard with such attention and affection, that he seemed even to eat
the words of the preacher. He earnestly longed for the pardon of his
sins: but for the first three weeks he had not the least glimpse of
comfort.
Shortly after, as he was in prayer, crying earnestly for mercy, under
great horror of soul, God broke in upon him in a wonderful manner,
which he thus expressed to the person that preached.
*“I believe now my peace is made with God through Jesus Christ. I
experience a great change in my soul, for while I was at prayer, last
night, in great terror, apprehensive that I was going immediately body
and soul to hell: I cry’d out so loud that my fellow-prisoners in the
next ward heard me, and called to know what was the matter: I told them
that I was going to hell, and begged their prayers for me: but while
I was in the midst of this horror and despair, I suddenly experienced
a blessed and comfortable change: my mind was immediately calmed: I
believed my sins were forgiven: the fear of hell was taken away: and
I was so far from fearing death, that I was now more desirous to die,
than to live.”
He earnestly desired prayer to God in his behalf, and wept bitterly
that ever he should sin against him. It was very observable from this
time, that the greater sense he experienced of the mercy of God to him,
the greater abhorrence he had of sin, and of himself for committing it.
He was now more serious in hearing the word than ever; and was
frequently singing of psalms and hymns. He could not bear to hear any
of his fellow-prisoners profane the name of God, but would reprove them
and exhort them with a serious concern to reflect on the consequences
of such a behaviour.
“Oh! (said he) did you but feel the terrors I lately did for my sins,
you would dread the thoughts of ever sinning again.”
“I have (says he, to a friend) deserved eternal death; but blessed be
God who hath taken away the sting of death, and the guilt of sin; and
now I can walk through the valley of the shadow of death, and not be
afraid: now I can lay down and rise up, can live and die in peace.”
Being removed from _Bridewell_ to _Newgate_, to be tried at the _Old
Bailey_, the day before he was brought to the bar, he said, “Shortly
I shall appear before the bar of man, and receive a sentence of death
on this body; but this is my comfort, before man condemns me, God,
the eternal God, has pardoned me: I shall stand guilty before man, but
guiltless before God.”
Being asked, “How he, who acknowledged himself a sinner could stand
guiltless before God.”
He replied, “Because Jesus Christ hath washed away my sins in his own
blood; and I am justified by his grace: my sins are blotted out of the
book of his remembrance.”
It was asked again, “How he knew that Christ had taken away his sins,
and that he was washed in his blood.”
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