The yellow book, an illustrated quarterly. Vol. 2, July 1894
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The yellow book, an illustrated quarterly. Vol. 2, July 1894
English literature -- 19th century -- Periodicals; Great Britain -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals
Janet went to bed, feeling that the world was possible once more. Her
mind was relieved of a great weight, she was wonderfully
light-hearted, now that she rested weakly upon another's generosity,
and was released from her egotistical hopelessness. She no longer had
a great trouble which engrossed her thoughts, her mind was free to
travel over the comforting circumstances of that evening: the intimate
room, Lady Beamish's face with the tears gathering in her eyes, the
confession she had made of her own loneliness, her offer of help which
had made the world human again, her story and Henry's interruption,
and the funny little argument between the mother and the son whom she
adored; and after that, Lady Beamish had still stayed talking, and had
dropped into telling of love as willingly as any school-girl, only
everything came with such sweet force from the woman with all that
experience of life. Every point in the evening with Lady Beamish had
gone to give her a deep-felt happiness; hopes sprang up in her mind,
and she soon fell asleep filled with wonder and pity, thinking of the
lovely Jewess whom Lady Beamish had known and admired so long ago,
when Janet herself was only five or six years old.
The older woman lay awake many hours thinking over her own life, and
the sorrows of this poor girl.
* * * * *
Janet did not take Lady Beamish's offer, but went to Bristol, upheld
by the idea that her friend respected her all the more for keeping to
her plans. The first night at Bristol, in the room which was to be
hers, she took out the old letter of invitation for that evening, and
before she went to bed she kissed the signature "Clara Beamish"--the
christian name seemed to bring them close together.
When she had overcome the strangeness of her surroundings, life was
once more what it had always been; there was no particular struggle,
no particular hopefulness. She was cheerful for no reason on Monday,
less cheerful for no reason on Wednesday. The correspondence with Lady
Beamish, which she had hoped would keep up their friendship, dropped
almost immediately; the two letters she received from her were stiff,
far off. Janet heard of her now and then, generally as performing some
social duty. They met too a few times, but almost as strangers.
But Janet always remembered that she had gained the commendation of
the wonderful woman, and that she approved of her; and she never
forgot that evening, and the picture of Clara Beamish, exquisitely
sympathetic, adorable. It stood out as a bright spot in life, nothing
could change its value and reality.
III--Sancta Maria
By V.
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