The yellow book, an illustrated quarterly. Vol. 3, October, 1894
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The yellow book, an illustrated quarterly. Vol. 3, October, 1894
English literature -- 19th century -- Periodicals; Great Britain -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals
That way is, to walk about the old city, with “a spirit in my feet,” as
Shelley and Catullus have it, of joyous aims and energies; and to speed
home to my solitary room over the steep High Street; in an arm-chair,
to read Milton and Lucretius, with others. There is nothing unworthy
in all this: there is open air, an ancient city, a lonely chamber,
perfect poets. Those should make up a passing life well: for death!
I can watch tobacco clouds, exploring the secret of their beautiful
conclusion. And, indeed, I think that already this life has something
of their manner, those wheeling clouds! It has their light touch upon
the world, and certainly their harmlessness. Early morning, when the
dew sparkles red; honey, and coffee, and eggs for a breakfast; the
quick, eager walk between the limes, through the Close of fine grass,
to the river fields; then the blithe return to my poets; all that,
together, comes to resemble the pleasant spheres of tobacco cloud; I
mean, the circling hours, in their passage, and in their change, have
something of a dreamy order and progression. Such little incidents!
Now, grey air and whistling leaves: now, a marketing crowd of country
folk round the Cross: and presently, clear candles; with Milton, in
rich Baskervile type, or Lucretius, in the exquisite print of early
Italy.
Such little incidents, in a world of battles and of plagues: of violent
death by sea and land! Yet this quiet life, too, has difficulties and
needs: its changes must be gone through with a ready pleasure and a
mind unhesitating. For, trivial though they be in aspect and amount,
yet the consecration of them, to be an holy discipline of experience,
is so much the greater an attempt: it is an art. Each thing, be it
man, or book, or place, should have its rights, when it encounters
me: each has its proper quality, its peculiar spirit, not to be
misinterpreted by me in carelessness, nor overlooked with impatience.
That is clear: but neither must I vaunt my just view of common life.
Meditation, at twilight, by the window looking toward the bare downs,
is very different from that anxious examination of motives, dear to
sedulous souls. My meditation is only still life: the clouds of smoke
go up, grey and blue; the earlier stars come out, above the sunset
and the melancholy downs; and deep, mournful bells ring slowly among
the valley trees. Then, if my day have been successful, what peace
follows, and how profound a charm! The little things of the day, sudden
glances of light upon grey stone, pleasant snatches of organ music
from the church, quaint rustic sights in some near village: they come
back upon me, gentle touches of happiness, airs of repose. And when
the mysteries come about me, the fearfulness of life, and the shadow
of night; then, have I not still the blue, grey clouds, _occultis de
rebus quo referam_? So I escape the tribulations of doubt, those gloomy
tribulations: and I live in the strength of dreams, which never doubt.
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