The yellow book, an illustrated quarterly. Vol. 3, October, 1894
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The yellow book, an illustrated quarterly. Vol. 3, October, 1894
English literature -- 19th century -- Periodicals; Great Britain -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals
God had given him back to her. Whether circumstances brought them
together frequently, or whether they were forced to live their lives
almost wholly apart, would, he told himself, matter but little. Their
spiritual communion would remain unbroken. Indeed, the prospect of
such separations, proving, as it did to him, the sureness of the bond
between them, almost elated him. There would be unquestioning trust
between them, and, though the world had separated them, the best that
was in him belonged to her. When at length they met, there would be no
need for insistance on common points of feeling, for repeated handling
of past threads, as was customary with ordinary friendships. Since each
could read the other’s heart, that sure intuition born of chastened,
spiritual love would be theirs. If trouble came to her, he would be
there to sacrifice all at a moment’s bidding, after the fashion of the
knights of old. Because she knew him, she would have faith in him. To
do her service would be his greatest joy.
At first the immobile, isolated hours of his convalescence made all
these things appear simple and inevitable, like the events of a great
dream. As time went on, however, he grew to chafe against his long
confinement, to weary of his weakness, and of the familiar sight of
every object in the room; and in the mornings, when Mrs. Parkin brought
him his breakfast, he found himself longing for a letter from her--some
brief word of joy that he was recovering. He yearned for some material
object, the touch of which would recall her to him, as if a particle of
her personality had impregnated the atoms.
Sometimes, he would force himself into believing that she would
appear again, drive out to learn the progress of his recovery....
After luncheon she would leave home ... about half-past one, probably
... soon after three, he would see her.... Now, she was nearing the
cross-roads ... now climbing the hill past Longrigg’s farm ... she
would have to walk the horse there ... now, crossing the old bridge. He
would lie watching the clock; and when the suspense grew intolerable,
to cheat it, he would bury his head in the pillow to count up to a
thousand, before glancing at the hands again. So would slip by the
hour of her arrival; still, he would struggle to delude himself with
all manner of excuses for her--she had been delayed--she had missed
the turning, and had been compelled to retrace her steps. And, when at
length the twilight had come, he would start to assure himself that it
was to be to-morrow, and sink into a fitful dozing, recounting waking
dreams of her, subtly intoxicating....
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