Jews -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; New York (N.Y.) -- Fiction
“I remembered his asking, 'Wilt thou take this woman, Christine, to thy
wedded wife?' and the glow of joy and pride and triumph, with which I
prepared to answer. I remembered that then, just as I was opening my
lips to speak, it seemed as though suddenly a dazzling disk of light
rose before my eyes, changing color in rapid pulsations from white
through yellow to scarlet; a sudden, tingling pain, like a powerful
electric current, starting in the back of my head, shot through my
body; a hard, sharp lump stuck in my throat; I felt that I was losing my
ability to stand upright. I tried with might and main to keep my
feet, and to speak the two necessary words. But I could not. My limbs
contracted spasmodically. I heard a sharp explosion, like the report of
a pistol, which sounded and felt as though somehow it came from within
my own head. I cried out. I believed that I was surely dying. There was
a second of immense agony--fear of death. I fell. Up to that point, I
remembered every thing perfectly. But _at_ that point, my memory broke
short off.”
And remembering these things in this way, what did he conclude?
He jumped to a conclusion which was most unwarrantable and most
deplora-able, but which, considering all the circumstances, considering
the fact that he was a Jew, born a Jew, bred a Jew, and the fact that
for countless generations his ancestors upon every side had been Jews of
the Jews, can scarcely be regarded as unnatural. He concluded that what
the rabbi had prophesied had come to pass. He concluded that the God of
Israel had indeed interfered.
The wild, black chaos, into which this conclusion hurled all his
faculties, all his ideas, all his emotions, who shall describe? Was it
not unspeakable even to himself? With horror-struck soul, the horror
quivering through every atom and fiber of his being, he could only lie
there upon his bed, shuddering, and moaning out, “Oh, God! oh, God! oh,
God!”
In wonder-tales and mystical romances, we are accustomed to see the
supernatural dealt with composedly enough. Surprise, amazement even,
it may inspire in the fictitious personages confronted by it. But when,
outside of literature, in what we call real life, a man of ordinary
sensitiveness persuades himself that he has felt the contact of that
awful, questionable Something which lies beyond the limits of common
experience, his revulsion of feeling does not stop at amazement or
surprise. All his theories and principles of life, tacit, unconscious
perhaps, though many of them may be, are shaken from their foundations,
disorganized, thrown into confusion; and his predominant sensation, we
may be sure, is one of blood-curdling, panic horror. Such, at least, was
the truth with Elias. His heart seemed to have frozen in his bosom; and
he was sick with fear from head to foot.
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