As soon as supper was over she retired to her room--to the little room
that had been hers in her childhood--where, before lighting the lamp,
she sat for awhile at the open window looking out into the night,
breathing long and deep of the pure air that was sweetly perfumed with
the odor of the meadows and fields. In the brooding quiet; in the soft
night sounds; in the fragrant breeze that gently touched her hair; she
felt the old, old, forces of life calling to her womanhood and felt
her womanhood stir in answer. For a long time she sat there giving
free rein to the thoughts and longings that, in her city life, she was
forced to suppress.
Rising at last, as though with quick resolution, she lighted her lamp
and prepared for bed; loosening her hair and deftly arranging the
beautiful, shining, mass that fell over her shoulders in a long braid.
Then, smiling as she would have smiled at the play of a child, she
knelt before her trunk and, taking something from its depth, quickly
put out the light again and once more seated herself in a low rocking
chair by the open window.
Had there been any one to see, they would not have understood. Who is
there, indeed, to understand the heart of womanhood? The woman,
sitting in the dark before the window in that room so full of the
memories of her childhood, held close in her arms an ancient doll
whose face had been washed so many times by its little mother that it
was but a smudge of paint.
That night the woman slept as a child sleeps after a long, busy,
happy, childhood day--slept to open her eyes in the morning while the
birds in the trees outside her window were heralding the coming of the
sun. Rising she looked and saw the sky glorious with the light of
dawning day. Flaming streamers of purple and scarlet and silver
floated high over the buildings and trees next door. The last of the
pale stars sank into the ocean of blue and, from behind the old
orchard above the house where the boy lived, long shafts of golden
light shot up as if aimed by some heavenly archer hiding behind the
hill.
When the day was fully come, the woman quickly dressed and went out
into the yard. The grass was dew drenched and fragrant under her feet.
The flowers were fresh and inviting. But she did not pause until, out
in the garden, at the farther corner, close by the hedge, she stood
under the cherry tree--sacred cathedral of her Yesterdays.
When she turned again to go back to the house, the woman's face was
shining with the light that glows only in the faces of those women who
know that they are women and who dream the dreams of womanhood.
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