It was early winter when his time came but he knew that first morning
after he had returned from his vacation that it was coming. The moment
he entered the room to take up again the task of putting his dreams
into action, he saw her and felt her power for she was one of those
women who compel recognition of their sex as the full noonday sun
compels recognition of its light and heat.
An hour later her duties brought her to him, and, for a few moments,
they stood face to face. And the man, while he instructed her in the
work that she was to do, felt the strength of her power even as a
strong swimmer feels the current of the stream. Through her eyes, in
her voice, in her presence, this woman challenged the man, made him
more conscious of her than of his work. The subtle, insinuating,
luring, strength of her beat upon him, enveloped him, thrilled him. As
she turned to go back to her place, his eyes followed her and he knew
that he was approaching a great crisis in his life. He knew that soon
or late he would be forced into a battle with himself and that
tremendous stakes would be at issue. He knew that victory would give
him increased power, larger capacity, and a firmer grip upon the
enduring principles of life or defeat would make of him a slave, with
enfeebled spirit, humiliated and ashamed.
Every day, in the weeks that followed, the man was forced to see
her--to talk with her--to feel her strength. And every day he felt
himself carried irresistibly onward toward the testing that he knew
must come. He was conscious, too, that the woman, also, knew and
understood and that it pleased her so to use her power. She willed
that he should feel her presence. In a thousand subtle forms she
repeated her challenge. In ways varied without number she called to
him, lured him, led him. To do this seemed a necessity to her. She was
one of those women whose natures seem to demand this expression of
themselves. Instinctively, she made all men with whom she came in
contact feel her power and, instinctively--unconsciously, perhaps--she
gloried in her strength.
If the man could have had other things in common with her it would
have been different. If there had been, as well, the appeal of the
intellect--of the spirit--if the beauty of her had been to him an
expression of something more than her sex--if there had been ideals,
hopes, longings, fears, even sorrow or regret, common to both, it
would have been different. But there was nothing. Often the man sought
to find something more but there was nothing. So he permitted himself
to be carried onward by a current against which, when the time should
come, he knew he would need to fight with all his might. And always,
as the current swept him onward toward the point where he must make
the decisive struggle, he felt the woman's power over him growing ever
greater.
At last it came.
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