“I—even I had a lover once. No, dear, we never married. It was one of
those spiritual loves; a formal engagement with a ring would have spoiled
it—coarsened it. No; it was just a beautiful thing that came into my
life and passed away again, leaving behind it a fragrance that has
sweetened all my days.”
That is how he imagined they would talk about it, years afterwards, to
the little niece or nephew, asking artless questions—how they would feel
about it themselves. Whether law circles are peculiarly rich in
unattractive spinsters, or whether it merely happened to be an
exceptional season for them, Bute could not say; but certain it was that
the number of sour-faced girls and fretful old maids in excess of the
demand seemed to be greater than usual that winter in Edinburgh, with the
result that young Hapgood had a busy time of it. He made love to them,
not obtrusively, which might have laid them open to ridicule—many of them
were old enough to have been his mother—but more by insinuation, by
subtle suggestion. His feelings, so they gathered, were too deep for
words; but the adoring eyes with which he would follow their every
movement, the rapt ecstasy with which he would drink in their lightest
remark about the weather, the tone of almost reverential awe with which
he would enquire of them concerning their lesser ailments—all conveyed to
their sympathetic observation the message that he dared not tell. He had
no favourites. Sufficient it was that a woman should be unpleasant, for
him to pour out at her feet the simulated passion of a lifetime. He sent
them presents—nothing expensive—wrapped in pleasing pretence of
anonymity; valentines carefully selected for their compromising
character. One carroty-headed old maid with warts he had kissed upon the
brow.
All this he did out of his great pity for them. It was a beautiful idea,
but it worked badly. They did not understand—never got the hang of the
thing: not one of them. They thought he was really gone on them. For a
time his elusiveness, his backwardness in coming to the point, they
attributed to a fit and proper fear of his fate; but as the months went
by the feeling of each one was that he was carrying the apprehension of
his own unworthiness too far. They gave him encouragement, provided for
him “openings,” till the wonder grew upon them how any woman ever did get
married. At the end of their resources, they consulted bosom friends.
In several instances the bosom friend turned out to be the bosom friend
of more than one of them. The bosom friends began to take a hand in it.
Some of them came to him with quite a little list, insisting—playfully at
first—on his making up his mind what he was going to take and what he was
going to leave; offering, as reward for prompt decision, to make things
as easy for him as possible with the remainder of the column.
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