This FreedomHutchinson, A. S. M. (Arthur Stuart-Menteth)
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This Freedom
Hutchinson, A. S. M. (Arthur Stuart-Menteth)
Marriage -- Fiction; Women -- Social and moral questions -- Fiction
Look, there he is. Always so quiet, gentle, good. Always, though
snubbed, so passionately fond of Doda. Look, there he is. He’s at
Milchester, in his spectacles, the darling! He’s always in his books. He
isn’t good at games. He does so well at school. Oh, isn’t Harry proud of
him and fond of him! Oh, doesn’t Harry often sigh and wish he could
have gone to Tidborough to win those prizes and those honours there. But
Tidborough’s closed to Harry, Harry says. Look, there goes Benji! It’s
1919. He’s sixteen. It’s Speech Day at Milchester. He’s in the Sixth.
He’s won all those prizes. She’s holding two and Harry’s holding three,
and there he goes to take the Heriot Gold Medal. All the great hall is
simply cheering Benji! The Head is saying that he’s the youngest boy
that’s ever won the Heriot. Look, there’s the Bishop handing it, and
shaking Benji by the hand, and patting Benji on the back, and saying
something to him. You can’t possibly hear what it is, every one is
cheering so. Look, here he comes with the medal, in his spectacles, the
darling! She can scarcely see, her eyes are brimming so. Harry’s quite
shameless. Harry’s got tears standing on his cheeks and he’s set down
the prizes and is stretching both his hands out to the boy. Feel, that’s
his hand--her Benji’s hand--snuggled a moment in hers, and then he turns
to his father and is eagerly whispering to his father, his spectacles
rubbing his father’s head, the darling! He’s more demonstrative to his
father than he is to her. She feels it rather sometimes. He’s awfully
sweet to her, but, you can’t help noticing it, it’s more his gracious
manner than the outpouring she’d give anything to have. It’s funny how
he always seems the tiniest atom strange with her as if he didn’t
know her very well or hadn’t known her very long. It sometimes pains a
little. He’s different with his father. He loves being with his father.
And doesn’t Harry love having the boy with him! Harry idolises the boy.
Of course Huggo is Harry’s eldest, and whatever Huggo’s disappointments,
these men--at least these perfect Harry type of men--have for their
eldest boy within their hearts a place no other child can quite exactly
fill. There’s some especial yearning that the eldest seems to call.
There’s some incorporation of the father’s self, there’s some reflection
that he sees, there’s some communion that he seems to find, that makes
“My eldest son” a thing apart. But, with that reservation, and that’s
ingrained in men, it’s Benji that’s the world to Harry. He’s going to
Ox-ford. He’s going to have the Bar career that Huggo wouldn’t take. But
Harry thinks there’s some especial wonders going to come to Benji. He
says the boy’s a dreamer. He says the boy’s a thinker. “Benji’s got
something rare about him, Rosalie,” he says. “That boy’s got a mark on
him that genius has. You wait and see, old lady. It’s Benji’s going to
make the old name shine!” Strike on!
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