"And Mr Bayle, mother--he quite checked me. I was so grieved, and felt
in such despair at parting from him till he stood holding my hands. I
wanted to throw my arms round his neck, and let him hold me to his
breast, as he used years ago; but when I looked up in his face, he
seemed so calm and cheerful, and he just smiled down at me, and it made
me angry. Mamma, dear, men have no feeling at all."
"I think Mr Bayle feels our going deeply," replied Mrs Hallam,
quietly.
"He did not seem to," said Julia pettishly.
"A man cannot show his sorrow as a woman may, my child," said Mrs
Hallam, with a sigh.
She gazed back at the land that seemed to be growing more dim, minute by
minute, as the great ship careened over to the press of sail, and sped
on down Channel.
A wistful look came into the mother's eyes, as she thought of her
child's words. In spite of resolutions and promises, the parting from
the old people had been most painful; but, throughout all, there had
seemed to her to be a curious indifference to her going, on the part of
Bayle. He had been incessant in his attentions; a hundred little acts
had been performed that were likely to make their stay on shipboard more
pleasant; but there was a something wanting--a something she had felt
deeply, and the pain became the more acute since she found that her
feelings were shared.
They stood gazing at the grey and distant land, when the evening was
falling. They were faint for want of food; but they knew it not, for
the faintness was mingled with the sickness of the heart, and in spite
of the glowing happy future Mrs Hallam tried to paint, a strange sense
of desolation and despair seemed to overmaster her, and all her
fortitude was needed to save her from bursting into a violent fit of
sobbing.
On and on with the water rushing beneath them, as they leaned upon the
bulwarks, gazing still at the fast receding shore. There had been a
great deal of noisy bustle going on around; but so wrapt were they in
their own feelings that sailors and passengers, officers and men, passed
and repassed unheeded. They were in a little world of their own, blind
to all beside, so that it was with quite a start that Mrs Hallam heard,
for the second time, a voice say:
"Surely, ladies, you must be cold. Will you allow me to fetch shawls
from the cabin?"
The first time these words were spoken, neither Mrs Hallam nor Julia
moved; but, on their being repeated, they turned quickly round, to find
that Thisbe had gone below, and that where she had been seated upon her
box an officer in undress uniform was standing, cap in hand.
"I thank you, no," said Mrs Hallam coldly, as she returned the bow.
"Julie, it is time we went below."
The officer drew back as mother and daughter swept slowly by towards the
cabin stairs, and remained motionless even after they had disappeared.
He was roused from his waking dream by a hearty clap on the shoulders.
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