Christian fiction; Wingfold, Thomas (Fictitious character) -- Fiction
Lord, hear my discontent: All blank I stand,
A mirror polished by thy hand;
Thy sun’s beams flash and flame from me--
I cannot help it: here I stand, there he;
To one of them I cannot say--
Go, and on yonder water play.
Nor one poor ragged daisy can I fashion--
I do not make the words of this my limping passion.
If I should say: Now I will think a thought,
Lo! I must wait, unknowing,
What thought in me is growing,
Until the thing to birth is brought;
Nor know I then what next will come
From out the gulf of silence dumb.
I am the door the thing did find
To pass into the general mind;
I cannot say I think--
I only stand upon the thought-well’s brink;
From darkness to the sun the water bubbles up--
I lift it in my cup.
Thou only thinkest--I am thought;
Me and my thought thou thinkest. Nought
Am I but as a fountain spout
From which thy water welleth out.
Thou art the only One, the All in all.
--Yet when my soul on thee doth call
And thou dost answer out of everywhere,
I in thy allness have my perfect share.
While he read Rachel crept to his knee, knelt down, and laid her head
upon it.
If we are but the creatures of a day, yet surely were the shadow-joys of
this miserable pair not merely nobler in their essence, but finer to the
soul’s palate than the shadow-joys of young Hercules Bascombe--Helen and
horses and all! Poor Helen I cannot use for comparison, for she had no
joy, save indeed the very divine, though at present unblossoming one
of sisterly love. Still, and notwithstanding, if the facts of life are
those of George Bascombe’s endorsing--AND HE CAN PROVE IT--let us by all
means learn and accept them, be they the worst possible. Meantime there
are truths that ought to be facts, and until he has proved that there is
no God, some of us will go feeling after him if haply we may find him,
and in him the truths we long to find true. Some of us perhaps think we
have seen him from afar, but we only know the better that in the mood
wherein such as Bascombe are, they will never find him--which would no
doubt be to them a comfort were it not for a laughter. And if he be such
as their idea of what we think him, they ARE better without him. If, on
the contrary, he be what some of us really think him, their not seeking
him will not perhaps prevent him from finding them.
From likeness of nature, community of feeling, constant intercourse, and
perfect confidence, Rachel understood her uncle’s verses with sufficient
ease to enjoy them at once in part, and, for the rest, to go on thinking
in the direction in which they would carry her; but Wingfold, in whom
honesty of disposition had blossomed at last into honesty of action,
after fitting pause, during which no word was spoken, said:--
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