Christian fiction; Wingfold, Thomas (Fictitious character) -- Fiction
As for Helen, the sermon had indeed laid a sort of feebly electrical
hold upon her, the mere nervous influence of honesty and earnestness.
But she could not accuse herself of having ever made a prominent
profession of Christianity, confirmation and communion notwithstanding;
and besides, had she not now all but abjured the whole thing in her
heart? so that, if every word of what he said was true, not a word of
it could be applied to her! And what time had she to think about such
far-away things as had happened eighteen centuries ago, when there was
her one darling pining away with a black weight on his heart!
For, although Leopold was gradually recovering, a supreme dejection, for
which his weakness was insufficient to account, prostrated his spirit,
and at length drove Mr. Faber to ask Helen whether she knew of any
disappointment or other source of mental suffering that could explain
it. She told him of the habit he had formed, and asked whether his
being deprived of the narcotic might not be the cause. He accepted the
suggestion, and set himself, not without some success, to repair the
injury the abuse had occasioned. Still, although his physical condition
plainly improved, the dejection continued, and Mr. Faber was thrown back
upon his former conjecture. Learning nothing, however, and yet finding
that, as he advanced towards health, his dejection plainly deepened, he
began at length to fear softening of the brain, but could discover no
other symptom of such disease.
The earnestness of the doctor’s quest after a cause for what anyone
might observe, added greatly to Helen’s uneasiness; and besides, the
fact itself began to undermine the hope of his innocence which had again
sprung up and almost grown to assurance in the absence of any fresh
contradiction from without. Also, as his health returned, his sleep
became more troubled; he dreamed more, and showed by his increased
agitation in his dreams that they were more painful. In this respect his
condition was at the worst always between two and three o’clock in the
morning; and having perceived this fact, Helen would never allow anyone
except herself to sit up with him the first part of the night.
Increased anxiety and continued watching soon told upon her health yet
more severely, and she lost appetite and complexion. Still she slept
well during the latter part of the morning, and it was in vain that aunt
and doctor and nurse all expostulated with her upon the excess of her
ministration: nothing should make her yield the post until her brother
was himself again. Nor was she without her reward, and that a sufficing
one--in the love and gratitude with which Leopold clung to her.
During the day also she spent every moment, except such as she passed
in the open air, and at table with her aunt, by his bedside, reading and
talking to him; but as yet not a single allusion had been made to the
frightful secret.
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