Christian fiction; Wingfold, Thomas (Fictitious character) -- Fiction
“That depends on the nature of the idea, I should imagine,” answered
the curate. “Such things sometimes arise merely from the state of the
health, and there the doctor is the best help.”
Helen shook her head, and smiled behind her veil a grievous smile. The
curate paused, but, receiving no assistance, ventured on again.
“If it be a thought of something past and gone, for which nothing can
be done, I think activity in one’s daily work must be the best aid to
endurance.”
“Oh dear! oh dear!” sighed Helen--“when one has no heart to endure, and
hates the very sunlight!--You wouldn’t talk about work to a man dying of
hunger, would you?”
“I’m not sure about that.”
“He wouldn’t heed you.”
“Perhaps not.”
“What would you do then?”
“Give him some food, and try him again, I think.”
“Then give me some food--some hope, I mean, and try me again. Without
that, I don’t care about duty or life or anything.”
“Tell me, then, what is the matter; I MAY be able to hint at some hope,”
said Wingfold, very gently. “Do you call yourself a Christian?”
The question would to most people have sounded strange, abrupt,
inquisitorial; but to Helen it sounded not one of them all.
“No,” she answered.
“Ah!” said the curate a little sadly, and went on. “Because then I
could have said, you know where to go for comfort.--Might it not be well
however to try if there is any to be had from him that said ‘COME UNTO
ME, AND I WILL GIVE YOU REST?’”
“I can do nothing with that. I have tried and tried to pray, but it is
of no use. There is such a weight on my heart that no power of mine can
lift it up. I suppose it is because I cannot believe there is anyone
hearing a word I say. Yesterday, when I got alone in the park, I prayed
aloud: I thought that perhaps, even if he might not be able to read what
was in my heart, he might be able to hear my voice. I was even foolish
enough to wish I knew Greek, because perhaps he would understand me
better if I were to pray in Greek. My brain seems turning. It is of no
use! There is no help anywhere!”
She tried hard, but could not prevent a sob. And then came a burst of
tears.
“Will you not tell me something about it?” said the curate, yet more
gently. Oh, how gladly would he relieve her heart if he might! “Perhaps
Jesus has begun to give you help, though you do not know it yet,” he
said, “His help may be on the way to you, or even with you, only you do
not recognize it for what it is. I have known that kind of thing.
Tell me some fact or some feeling I can lay hold of. Possibly there is
something you ought to do and are not doing, and that is why you cannot
rest. I think Jesus would give no rest except in the way of learning of
him.”
Helen’s sobs ceased, but what appeared to the curate a long silence
followed. At length she said, with faltering voice:
“Suppose it were a great wrong that had been done, and that was the
unendurable thought? SUPPOSE, I say, that was what made me miserable!”
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