Christian fiction; Wingfold, Thomas (Fictitious character) -- Fiction
What a change had come upon him--slow, indeed, yet how vast, since the
night when he sat in the same churchyard indignant and uneasy with the
words of Bascombe like hot coals in his heart! He had been made ashamed
of himself who had never thought much of himself, but the more he had
lost of worthiness in his own eyes the more he had gained in worth. And
the more his poor satisfaction with himself had died out, the more the
world had awaked around him. For it must be remembered that a little
conceit is no more to be endured than a great one, but must be swept
utterly away. Sky and wind and water and birds and trees said to him,
“Forget thyself and we will think of thee. Sing no more to thyself thy
foolish songs of decay, and we will all sing to thee of love and hope
and faith and resurrection.” Earth and air had grown full of hints and
sparkles and vital motions, as if between them and his soul an abiding
community of fundamental existence had manifested itself. He had never
in the old days that were so near and yet seemed so far behind him,
consciously cared for the sunlight: now even the shadows were marvellous
in his eyes, and the glitter the golden weather-cock on the tower was
like a cry of the prophet Isaiah. High and alone in the clear blue air
it swung, an endless warning to him that veers with the wind of the
world, the words of men, the summer breezes of their praise, or the
bitter blasts of their wintry blame; it was no longer to him a cock of
the winds, but a cock of the truth--a Peter-cock, that crew aloud in
golden shine its rebuke of cowardice and lying. Never before had he
sought acquaintance with the flowers that came dreaming up out of the
earth in the woods and the lanes like a mist of loveliness, but the
spring-time came in his own soul, and then he knew the children of the
spring. And as the joy of the reviving world found its way into the
throats of the birds, so did the spring in his reviving soul find its
way into the channels of thought and speech, and issue in utterance both
rhythmic and melodious.--But not in any, neither in all of these
things lay the chief sign and embodiment of the change he recognised in
himself. It was this: that, whereas in former times the name Christ had
been to him little more than a dull theological symbol, the thought of
him and of his thoughts was now constantly with him; ever and anon
some fresh light would break from the cloudy halo that enwrapped his
grandeur; ever was he growing more the Son of Man to his loving heart,
ever more the Son of God to his aspiring spirit. Testimony had merged
almost in vision: he saw into, and partly understood the perfection
it presented: he looked upon the face of God and lived. Oftener and
oftener, as the days passed, did it seem as if the man were by his side,
and at times, in the stillness of the summer-eve, when he walked alone,
it seemed almost, as thoughts of revealing arose in his heart, that the
Master himself was teaching him in spoken words.
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