Christian fiction; Wingfold, Thomas (Fictitious character) -- Fiction
He stopped at the Manor House, for it was only beginning to be late,
to inquire after Leopold. Helen received him with her usual coldness--a
manner which was in part assumed for self-protection, for in his
presence she always felt rebuked, and which had the effect of a veil
between them to hide from her much of the curate’s character that might
otherwise have been intelligible to her. Leopold, she said, was a little
better, but Wingfold walked home thinking what a happy thing it would be
if God were to take him away.
His interest in Helen deepened and deepened. He could not help admiring
her strength of character even when he saw it spent for worse than
nought; and her devotion to her brother was lovely, notwithstanding the
stains of selfishness that spotted it. Her moral standard was indeed
far from lofty, and as to her spiritual nature, that as yet appeared
nowhere. And yet the growth in her was marvellous when he thought of
what she had seemed before this trouble came. One evening as he left
Leopold, he heard her singing, and stood on the stair to listen. And to
listen was to marvel. For her voice, instead of being hard and dry, as
when he heard it before, was, without any loss of elasticity, now liquid
and mellifluous, and full of feeling. Its tones were borne along like
the leaves on the wild west wind of Shelley’s sonnet. And the longing of
the curate to help her from that moment took a fresh departure, and grew
and grew. But as the hours and days and weeks passed, and the longing
found no outlet, it turned to an almost hopeless brooding upon the face
and the form, yea the heart and soul of the woman he so fain would help,
until ere long he loved her with the passion of a man mingled with
the compassion of a prophet. He saw that something had to be done IN
her--perhaps that some saving shock in the guise of ruin had to visit
her; that some door had to be burst open, some roof blown away, some
rock blasted, that light and air might have free course through her
soul’s house, without which that soul could never grow stately like the
house it inhabited. Whatever might be destined to effect this, for the
chance of rendering poorest and most servile aid, he would watch and did
watch, in silence and self-restraint, lest he should be betrayed into
any presumptuous word that might breathe frost instead of balm upon the
buds of her delaying Spring. If he might but be allowed to minister when
at length the sleeping soul should stir! If its waking glance--ah! if
it might fall on him! As often as the thought intruded, his heart would
give one delirious bound, then couch ashamed of its presumption. He
would not, he dared not look in that direction. He accused himself of
mingling earthly motives and feelings with the unselfish and true, and
scorned himself because of it. And was not Bascombe already the favoured
friend of her heart?
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