Christian fiction; Wingfold, Thomas (Fictitious character) -- Fiction
While Polwarth was yet praying, the door had opened gently behind him,
and Helen, not knowing that he was there, had entered with Bascombe. He
neither heard their entrance, nor saw the face of disgust that George
made behind his back. What was in Bascombe’s deepest soul who shall
tell? Of that region he himself knew nothing. It was a silent, holy
place into which he had never yet entered--therefore lonely and deserted
as the top of Sinai after the cloud had departed. No--I will not say
that: who knows what is where man cannot or will not look? If George had
sought there, perhaps he might have found traces of a presence not yet
altogether vanished. In what he called and imagined his deepest soul,
however, all he was now conscious of was a perfect loathing of the
monstrous superstition so fitly embodied before him. The prayer of the
kneeling absurdity was to him an audacious mockery of the infrangible
laws of Nature: this hulk of misshapen pottery actually presuming to
believe that an invisible individual heard what he said because he
crooked his hinges to say it! It did not occur to George that the
infrangible laws of Nature she had herself from the very first so
agonizingly broken to the poor dwarf, she had been to him such a cruel
step-mother, that he was in evil case indeed if he could find no father
to give him fair play and a chance of the endurable. Was he so much to
blame if he felt the annihilation offered by such theorists as George,
not altogether a satisfactory counterpoise either to its existence or
its loss? If, even, he were to fancy in his trouble that the old fable
of an elder brother, something more humble than grand handsome George
Bascombe and more ready to help his little brothers and sisters, might
be true, seeing that an old story is not necessarily a false one, and
were to try after the hints it gave, surely in his condition such folly,
however absurd to a man of George Bascombe’s endowments, might of the
more gifted ephemeros be pardoned if not pitied. Nor will I assert that
he was altogether unaware of any admixture of the sad with the ludicrous
when he saw the amorphous agglomerate of human shreds and patches
kneeling by the bedside of the dying murderer, to pray some comfort into
his passing soul. But his “gorge rose at the nonsense and stuff of it,”
while through Helen ran a cold shudder of disgust at the familiarity and
irreverence of the little spiritual prig.
How many of the judgments we are told not to judge and yet do judge,
must make the angels of the judging and the judged turn and look at
each other and smile a sad smile, ere they set themselves to forget that
which so sorely needs to be forgotten.
Polwarth rose from his knees unaware of a hostile presence.
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