Christian fiction; Wingfold, Thomas (Fictitious character) -- Fiction
The pale amber spread, dilute with light, and beneath it lay the gray of
the fog, and above it the dark blue of cloud--not of sky. The soul of it
was so still, so resigned, so sad, so forsaken, that she who had thought
her heart gone from her, suddenly felt its wells were filling, and soon
they overflowed. She wept. At what? A colour in the sky! Was there then
a God that knew sadness--and was that a banner of grief he hung forth
to comfort the sorrowful with sympathy? Or was it but a godless colour
which the heart varnished with its own grief? Or if the human heart came
from nothing and was sad, why might not the aspects of nature come from
nothing and be sad too--wrought in harmony with the unutterable woe of
humanity? Then either is man the constructive centre of the world, and
its meanings are but his own face looking back upon him from the mirror
of his own projected atmosphere, and comfort there is none; or he is not
the centre of the world, which yet carries in its forms and colours
the aspects of his mind; and then, horror of horrors! is man the
one conscious point and object of a vast derision--insentient nature
grinning at sentient man! rose or saffron, his sky but mocks and makes
mows at him; while he himself is the worst mockery of all, being at once
that which mocks and that which not only is mocked but writhes in agony
under the mockery. Such as Bascombe reply that they find it not so. I
answer--For the best of reasons, that it is not so.
Helen’s doubts did not stay her weeping, as doubt generally does; for
the sky with its sweet sadness was before her, and deep in her heart
a lake of tears, which, now that it had begun to flow, would not be
stayed. She knew not why she wept, knew not that it was the sympathy
of that pale amber of sad resignation which brought her relief: but she
wept and wept, until her heart began to stir, and her tears came cooler
and freer.
“Oh Poldie! my own Poldie!” she cried at length, and fell upon her
knees--not-to worship the sky--not to pray to Poldie, or even for
Poldie--not indeed to pray at all, so far as she knew; yet I doubt if it
was merely and only from the impulse of the old childish habit of saying
prayers.
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