England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Villages -- England -- Fiction
"No, it is not that. It is just the reverse," he said, with an
unreasonable feeling that Winifred ought to know and understand all at
once. She looked round at him with quick surprise, but she did not
answer in any other manner, and he was obliged to go on. "Miss Lovell
has changed her mind, and prefers marrying some one else."
"You are laughing!" said Winifred, flushing angrily. "And it is not
kind. You may suppose we care about it."
"But I am not laughing," said Anthony, in a low voice. When she looked
at him, and saw that he was very grave, her hand began to tremble a
little. He had become suddenly despairing with the conviction that it
was an impossible thing to say, "I was engaged this morning to another
woman, and yet I have always loved you;" he felt as if he dared not
treat her so, and yet that he could not leave her.
"I don't understand it," Winifred began to say slowly. "Do you mean
that she has been so heartless and cruel? O, I don't think so, it is a
mistake; you fancy things sometimes which people do not intend in the
least! Have you been to Underham? Have you seen Miss Lovell yourself?"
"I have seen Mr Bennett. I assure you it was put in the plainest
possible English. Young Warren is the lucky fellow."
Perhaps her anger was useful, as it occasionally is, in keeping off
other emotions. She threw back her head, with a gesture she sometimes
used, a flush was on her cheek, and her eyes sparkled.
"How can you speak like that!" she said passionately. "I hate that
people should pretend not to care for what hurts them. Why can't you
let us be sorry for you?"
"Because I am not sorry for myself, Winifred," he said in a changed,
deep tone. He took her hand in his, and held it close, and looked down
into her eyes. "Because I have known for some time that the maddest
mistake I ever made in my life was when I asked Ada Lovell to marry me.
Because I feel as if a weight were lifted off my heart. Because I can
breathe now, and live,--yes, and love,--I must say it, Winifred, my
darling--"
For she had caught back her hand, and was standing, drawn to her full
height, with her breath coming quickly, and no softening in her eyes.
The words fell away from his lips. He, too, stood still and silent,
looking at her with a dreary sinking of his heart. So this was the end.
"You are right," he said, quietly, in another moment. "I ought to have
known better. Well,--at least you will say good by? Things don't
straighten themselves in the way we are fools enough to dream they will.
Good by, Winifred. Come, you'll say good bye?"
He stood still for another minute, waiting, and a lark that had been
singing jubilantly overhead dropped swiftly down in a hush of tender
silence. Winifred scarcely dared move, Anthony's tone heaped pain upon
her heart, tears rushed into her eyes, but she said "Good bye," putting
out her hand, at which he caught.
"No, it is not good by," he said suddenly. "Why should I be sent away?"
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