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Mary Thriplow did not answer. They took two or three turns in silence.
It was a folly, Calamy was thinking. He wasn’t really in love with the
woman. It was a waste of time and there were other things far more
important to be done, to be thought about. Other things. They loomed up
enormously behind the distracting bustle of life, silently on the
further side of the noise and chatter. But what were they? What was
their form, their name, their meaning? Through the fluttering veil of
movement it was impossible to do more than dimly guess; one might as
well try to look at the stars through the London smoke. If one could
stop the movement, or get away from it, then surely one would be able to
see clearly the large and silent things beyond. But there was no
stopping the movement and there was, somehow, no escaping from it. To
check it was impossible; and the gesture of escape was ludicrous. The
only sensible thing to do was to go on in the usual way and ignore the
things outside the world of noise. That was what Calamy tried to do. But
he was conscious none the less that the things were still there. They
were still calmly and immutably there, however much he might agitate
himself and distractedly pretend to ignore them. Mutely they claimed
attention. They had claimed it, of late, with a most irritating
persistence. Calamy’s response had been to make love to Mary Thriplow.
That was something which ought to keep him well occupied. And up to a
point it did. Up to a point. The best indoor sport, old Cardan had
called it; but one demanded something better. Could he go on like this?
Or if not, what should he do? The questions exasperated him. It was
because the things were there, outside the tumult, that he had to ask
them. They forced themselves on him, these questions. But it was
intolerable to be bullied. He refused to let himself be bullied. He’d do
what he damned well liked. But then, did he really like philandering
with Mary Thriplow? In a way, no doubt, up to a point. But the real
answer was no; frankly, no. But yes, yes, he insisted with another part
of his mind. He did like it. And even if he didn’t, he’d damned well say
that he did. And if necessary he’d damned well do what he didn’t
like—just because he chose to. He’d do what he didn’t like; and that was
the end of it. He worked himself up into a kind of fury.
“What are you thinking about?” Miss Thriplow suddenly asked.
“You,” he said; and there was a savage exasperation in his voice, as
though he passionately resented the fact that he was thinking about Mary
Thriplow.
“_Tiens!_” she said on a note of polite curiosity.
“What would you say if I told you I was in love with you?” he asked.
“I should say that I didn’t believe you.”
“Do you want me to compel you to believe?”
“I’d be most interested to know, at any rate, how you proposed to set
about it.”
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