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admire her original thoughts. Finally I take my leave.
“You’ll come again soon?” she asks, looking up into my face with eyes
that are full of sadness and apprehension, of questions unuttered, of
unexpressed reproaches. I kiss her hand. “Of course,” I say. And I go
away, taking pains as I walk down the street not to speculate on the
subject of her thoughts.
But Providence seems to have thought my connection with Dorothy
inadequately instructive. Dorothy, after all, was only twenty-six when
the episode began. Hers was that vernal and flowery season during which,
even in Italy, warblers are not shot. It would be another twenty years
before she reached her First of October; thirty, perhaps, before the
man-eating season should begin. And it was I who had made the first
advances. But for my exhibition of _Bosheit und Pläsier_ the boring
history would never have unrolled itself. But Providence, anxious, for
some inscrutable reason, to teach me a yet more memorable lesson, went
so far as almost to drown me, so determined was it that I should fall
into the hands of the suitable schoolmistress. I was to learn how
ludicrously dreadful, as well as how boring, love can be.
I made no advances on this occasion. From the first I did nothing but
retreat. Mrs. Aldwinkle’s blue danger signals bore down on me; like an
agile pedestrian in the London traffic, I stepped aside. When she asked
what women had inspired me, I answered that nothing inspired me but the
London slums and the vulgarity of Lady Giblet. When she said that one
could see by my face that I had been unhappy, I said that that was odd;
I had always been perfectly happy. When she talked about experience,
meaning, as women generally do when they use that word, merely love, I
replied with a discussion of experience in relation to the Theory of
Knowledge. When she accused me of wearing a mask, I protested that I
paraded my naked soul for every one to see. When she asked if I had ever
been in love, I shrugged my shoulders and smiled: not to speak of. And
when she asked, at very close range, if I had ever been loved, I
answered quite truthfully that I had, but that it bored me.
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