"Well, I should think so!" cried the inspector. Then he put his hand in
his pocket and called out: "Now, let's have some champagne. Ilya, my
boy, run to the wine merchant, and bring some champagne. Let's crack
a bottle,--here's the money, you're our guest, of course. Ask for Don
Champagne at ninety kopecks, and say it's for me, for Avtonomov, then
they'll give it you for sixty-five,--hurry up, my lad!"
Ilya looked smilingly at the beaming faces of the couple and went.
So Fate had pushed him and buffeted him, led him to grievous sin,
troubled his soul, and now suddenly she seemed to ask his forgiveness,
to smile on him and offer her favours. Now before him the way lay open
to a sheltered corner in life, where he could live quietly and find
peace for his soul. He had taken a man's life, and for that he would
help many and so make amends before the Lord. No, the Lord would not
punish him severely, for He knows all. Olympiada was right; in the
murder he was only the instrument, not the will, and evidently the Lord
Himself was helping him to straighten his course, since he had made
easy the attainment of his life's desire. Thoughts whirled through
Ilya's head as in a happy dance, and inspired his heart with joys of
life unknown till now. He brought from the wine shop a bottle of real
champagne for which he paid seven roubles.
"Oho!" cried Avtonomov, "that's what I call proper, my boy; that's an
idea! Ha! yes."
Tatiana thought differently; she shook her head disparagingly and said
in a tone of reproach, looking at the bottle:
"Seven roubles! Ei--ei! Ilya Jakovlevitch, how unpractical, how
foolish!"
Lunev stood before her, happy, deeply stirred; he smiled and said
joyfully:
"It's real champagne,--for the first time in my life I'll drink
something real. What's my life been up to now? All spoilt, dirt and
coarseness, and stuffiness, injuries and insults, and all kinds of
torment. Is that a real life do you suppose? Can any one go on living
like that?"
He touched the sore place in his heart; his words rang bitterly, his
eyes grew gloomy; he sighed deeply, and went on firmly and decidedly:
"Ever since I was small I've looked for the real thing and have lived
all the time like a wood-shaving in a brook. I was swept about, now
here, now there, and all round me everything was dull and dirty and
restless. I didn't know where to catch hold; only misery and injustice
and knavishness all round me, and all that disgusts me: and now fate
brings me to you, for the first time in my life I see how people can
live in peace and comfort and love."
He looked at them with a bright smile and bowed to them.
"I thank you. With you I've found relief for my soul, by God! You've
helped me for my whole life, now I can step out boldly, now I know how
a man should live! It will go well with me and no other shall suffer
for me. How many unlucky ones there are in the world! how many go
under. I've seen it all, I know it all."
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