Soldiers -- Fiction; War stories; World War, 1914-1918 -- Fiction
“Sale Americain!” he heard one nursemaid exclaim to the other. But
this was the first hour in months he had had free, the first moment of
solitude; he must live; soon he would be sent back to his division. A
wave of desire for furious fleshly enjoyments went through him, making
him want steaming dishes of food drenched in rich, spice-flavored
sauces; making him want to get drunk on strong wine; to roll on thick
carpets in the arms of naked, libidinous women. He was walking down the
quiet grey street of the provincial town, with its low houses with red
chimney pots, and blue slate roofs and its irregular yellowish cobbles.
A clock somewhere was striking four with deep booming strokes, Andrews
laughed. He had to be in hospital at six. Already he was tired; his legs
ached.
The window of a pastry shop appeared invitingly before him, denuded as
it was by wartime. A sign in English said: “Tea.” Walking in, he sat
down in a fussy little parlor where the tables had red cloths, and
a print, in pinkish and greenish colors, hung in the middle of the
imitation brocade paper of each wall. Under a print of a poster bed with
curtains in front of which eighteen to twenty people bowed, with the
title of “Secret d'Amour,” sat three young officers, who cast cold,
irritated glances at this private with a hospital badge on who invaded
their tea shop. Andrews stared back at them, flaming with dull anger.
Sipping the hot, fragrant tea, he sat with a blank sheet of music paper
before him, listening in spite of himself to what the officers were
saying. They were talking about Ronsard. It was with irritated surprise
that Andrews heard the name. What right had they to be talking about
Ronsard? He knew more about Ronsard than they did. Furious, conceited
phrases kept surging up in his mind. He was as sensitive, as humane, as
intelligent, as well-read as they were; what right had they to the cold
suspicious glance with which they had put him in his place when he
had come into the room? Yet that had probably been as unconscious, as
unavoidable as was his own biting envy. The thought that if one of those
men should come over to him, he would have to stand up and salute and
answer humbly, not from civility, but from the fear of being punished,
was bitter as wormwood, filled him with a childish desire--to prove his
worth to them, as when older boys had illtreated him at school and he
had prayed to have the house burn down so that he might heroically save
them all. There was a piano in an inner room, where in the dark the
chairs, upside down, perched dismally on the table tops. He almost
obeyed an impulse to go in there and start playing, by the brilliance
of his playing to force these men, who thought of him as a coarse
automaton, something between a man and a dog, to recognize him as an
equal, a superior.
“But the war's over. I want to start living. Red wine, streets of the
nightingale cries to the rose,” said one of the officers.
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