Through Night to Light: A NovelSpielhagen, Friedrich
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Through Night to Light: A Novel
Spielhagen, Friedrich
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head, to wash off the last remnant of earthly life in the bloody sweat
of the night on the Mount of Olives, and in order to die the death of a
murderer on the cross at Golgotha! Oh that I could go forth into all
the world, to preach the word, the sacred word, that frees us now and
forever--the word that leads us back again to our good, mild, dear
Mother Night, whom we have left in order to suffer infernal punishment
in the bright sun-glow of life, while our tongue is parched and our
temples are beating! The word, the holy, mysterious word, which has
become a mere mummery, a derision, and a mockery, in the vain show with
which they fancy they serve their God. Forgive them, oh Mother, for
they know not what they do; they would willingly come to you if they
had but ears to hear your sweet voice, and eyes to see your mild
beauty. I can see your holy face; its smile fills me with hope and
comfort. I can hear your voice; it whispers, 'wait, wait but a little
while, and you shall sink back into my faithful arms, back to eternal
peace.'"
The rosy hues had vanished from the sky; gray twilight was spreading
over the valleys, and the evening breeze began to whisper and to murmur
in the tops of the pine-trees.
Oswald was seized with vague terror. He felt as if that mystical Night,
which Berger had invoked in his strange prayer, was chilling him
already with a breath from the grave--as if the sun had set never to
rise again But this fear was not without a strange admixture of
delight. The narcotic fragrance of thoughts of death which had been
borne to him on Berger's ecstatic words, filled his heart, together
with the perfume of the heather and the aroma of the pines.
He thought of Helen and of Melitta, but not with the restless anxiety
of the morning, but in calm melancholy, as we think of the departed
whom we have loved. He thought of the troubles and blunders of his gay
drama in the château of Grenwitz, but it looked to him like a
puppet-show for children. He thought of the future, but it had no
longer any charms for him; it filled him neither with hope nor with
fear; it was as if his whole life were withdrawing from without, as if
the world were not worthy of so much love or so much hatred.
Thus he sat, resting his head on his hands, upon a large rock, and
looked out into the evening, which was spreading its dark wings wider
and wider over the heavens.
A hand was laid on his shoulder.
"Come!" said Berger, "let us return to the dead!"
They descended from the summit and plunged into the damp darkness of
the forest. Berger seemed to know every path and every stone in the
mountains. He went on, supporting himself every now and then with his
stout cane, at a pace which made it difficult for Oswald to follow him,
though he was considered a good pedestrian.
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