Through Night to Light: A NovelSpielhagen, Friedrich
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Through Night to Light: A Novel
Spielhagen, Friedrich
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"Let me finish, Adalbert! I trust in your goodness, as I trust in your
strength. I have not told you all yet; not even all the vows I have
made by the bedside of my sick child. I have often thought of your
child, then, and that a most terrible fate has robbed you of the love
of your child as well as of the love of her whom you love. And then I
vowed that, if I cannot make you as happy as you deserve to be; if
much, far too much, has happened which parts you and me forever; I can
yet help you bear your fate, as far as in me lies. I will try to
reconcile you to life, and live for you as far as I am able."
Melitta had, while she said these words, risen from the sofa. She stood
before him with deep-red cheeks and beaming eyes.
Oldenburg had heard her with breathless excitement, with an emotion
which grew stronger and deeper with every word. His eyes flashed, his
bosom heaved, he pressed his hands upon his heart, which felt as if it
would burst with unspeakable bliss.
When Melitta's last word had dropped from her lips he approached her,
knelt down before her, and said, with a voice deep and firm, like the
sound of an iron shield,
"And now hear my vow, Melitta! As surely as I have loved you ever since
I can think, as surely as the night of my life has been lighted up but
by a single star, as surely as I have wandered about restlessly and
aimlessly in the vast desert of life, only because I despaired that
that star could ever shine down upon me benignly--so surely will I,
from this moment, strive to attain the highest aim of man with all the
power I may possess. I will lay aside all little weaknesses and all my
cowardice; I will try to make up for the time which I have lost in
inactivity. And as sure as my heart is at this moment overflowing with
a happiness which words cannot describe, so surely will I seek neither
rest nor repose till you love me as I love you--till you are mine. Do
you near, Melitta--till you are my wife!"
He had risen, too.
"And now, Melitta," he cried, and his words sounded like shouts of joy,
"farewell! I cannot bear it any longer under this roof; the whole, wide
world has become too narrow for me. Farewell! farewell! till we meet
again!"
He embraced Melitta impetuously, and kissed her on her brow. Then he
hastily left the room.
Melitta had remained standing in the middle of the room, as if she were
petrified. She had not had the strength to keep Oldenburg back, nor to
return his farewell. She placed her hand upon her beating temples.
"What have I done? What have I said?" she asked herself. And the voice
of her heart answered: "Nothing you need be ashamed of, before yourself
or before your child."
She hastened into the adjoining room. She bent over the sleeping boy;
she kissed him amid burning tears.
Then she heard the rolling of a carriage, which rapidly drove away from
the door of the hotel.
"That is he!" she said, listening; and then, pressing her face in the
cushions, "Farewell! farewell! till we meet again!"
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