"I took the General's words very seriously, and proceeded to ask
myself: 'To what do those words amount? To this: that though I may not
care actually to take part in the game, I need not waste my whole
existence through a disinclination to learn the best use to which that
existence can be put.'"
With a triumphant uplift of tone, Kalinin continued:
"So, brother, I set myself to WATCH the game in question; with the
result that soon I discovered that the majority of men live surrounded
with a host of superfluous commodities which do but burden them, and
have in themselves no real value. What I refer to is books, pictures,
china, and rubbish of the same sort. Thought I to myself: 'Why should I
devote my life to tending and dusting such commodities while risking,
all the time, their breakage? No more of it for me! Was it for the
tending of such articles that my mother bore me amid the agonies of
childbirth? Is it an existence of THIS kind that must be passed until
the tomb be reached? No, no--a thousand times no! Rather will I, with
your good leave, reject altogether the game of life, and subsist as may
be best for me, and as may happen to be my pleasure.'"
Now, as Kalinin spoke, his eyes emitted green sparks, and as he waved
his hands over the fire, as though to lop off the red tongues of flame,
his fingers twisted convulsively.
"Of course, not all at a stroke did I arrive at this conclusion; I did
so but gradually. The person who finally confirmed me in my opinion was
a friar of Baku, a sage of pre-eminent wisdom, through his saying to
me: 'With nothing at all ought a man to fetter his soul. Neither with
bond-service, nor with property, nor with womankind, nor with any other
concession to the temptations of this world ought he to constrain its
action. Rather ought he to live alone, and to love none but Christ.
Only this is true. Only this will be for ever lasting.'
"And," added Kalinin with animation and inflated cheeks and flushed,
suppressed enthusiasm, "many lands and many peoples have I seen, and
always have I found (particularly in Russia) that many folk already
have reached an understanding of themselves, and, consequently, refused
any longer to render obeisance to absurdities. 'Shun evil, and you will
evolve good.' That is what the friar said to me as a parting
word--though long before our encounter had I grasped the meaning of the
axiom. And that axiom I myself have since passed on to other folk, as I
hope to do yet many times in the future."
At this point the speaker's tone reverted to one of querulous anxiety.
"Look how low the sun has sunk!" he exclaimed.
True enough, that luminary, large and round, was declining
into--rather, towards--the sea, while suspended between him and the
water were low, dark, white-topped cumuli.
"Soon nightfall will be overtaking us," continued Kalinin as he fumbled
in his kaftan. "And in these parts jackals howl when darkness is come."
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