Through These Eyes: The courageous struggle to find meaning in a life stressed with cancerIsaacson, Lauren Ann
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Through These Eyes: The courageous struggle to find meaning in a life stressed with cancer
Isaacson, Lauren Ann
Cancer -- Patients -- Biography; Isaacson, Lauren Ann, 1961-1986
The evening was memorable for my mom also, who, for a short time
observed our conversation at a pleasant distance. Since I had removed
my contacts for fear of losing them in the swimming pool, my vision was
rendered useless with regard to recognizing faces and perceiving detail
at distances greater than one foot. Therefore, when my "friend"
excused himself from the area, I sought my mom's visual acuteness and
asked cautiously, "Mom. . . what's he look like?" I was relieved to
discover that she found the guy attractive, and settled into a
pool-side chair as Mom retired to the room, noticeably humored by my
inquiry.
Such brief encounters augment confidence, for therein one is able to
discover his attractiveness to the opposite sex. Ours was the type of
interaction which was fleetingly romantic, yet bereft of expectations;
each of us knew the conversation would last no more than several hours
and end with a smile and a reluctant farewell. I believe the intrinsic
briefness created the comfortable atmosphere, for when one knows he
shall never see someone again, he leaves behind the fear of peer groups
and personality changes which often accompany a better knowledge of the
other.
The next morning when I recalled the previous evening, I realized with
horror that if I saw the boy, I would not recognize him and hoped for a
clean escape from the motel. To my relief, I saw no one who remotely
resembled a male teenager, and dismissed myself having only faceless
memories of a pool-side conversation and a cool RC Cola.
The family vacation was over after four weeks, and we were all glad to
be home. The trip was fun, yet it served to strengthen the heart
strings attached to our oak trees and modest house, and though
familiarity of itself was not love, it certainly did not subtract from
love's essence.
The remainder of the summer was spent in an easy, enjoyable manner. I
whiled away the hours on my bicycle or indulged in one of my crafts; I
met with friends from school, and stayed at my sister's house for one
week. Junior High School was a memory, pasted between the pages of a
scrapbook. Even my unfinished cedar chest had, by summer's end, found
its way into the garage attic.
The last days of freedom melted under the hot August sun, and I began
to wonder how three months could have escaped so soon. I once again
traveled to Mayo Clinic and returned with good spirits. The latter
part of the same week Todd moved to a distant Illinois town to accept a
position as a woodworking teacher for ninth grade students. The wheel
of change had begun to turn, and "home" meant three people instead of
four.
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Chapter 19
Tenth Grade
CHAPTER NINETEEN
Tenth Grade
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