Through These Eyes: The courageous struggle to find meaning in a life stressed with cancerIsaacson, Lauren Ann
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Through These Eyes: The courageous struggle to find meaning in a life stressed with cancer
Isaacson, Lauren Ann
Cancer -- Patients -- Biography; Isaacson, Lauren Ann, 1961-1986
After the cyclone dissipated, I would return bolts of fabric to their
various locations; if I did not know where a certain type should be
placed, I asked for direction. Inquiry, I reasoned, was better than
making rash mistakes. This part of the job, combined with cleaning and
general upkeep, became my favorite as I needed not worry about customer
interaction or managerial displeasure.
After two weeks, the manager called the three night employees to the
counter after closing out the cash register in order to voice some
complaints. Because I was the newest employee, he directed many
explicit implications toward me, essentially blaming me for numerous
misplaced bolts of material which he had gathered throughout the store
and brought to the counter. He reported, also, that the money in the
register and the amount dictated by the receipts did not coincide;
"someone," he said, "has been short changing customers." He looked at
me. "Laurie, you've got to be more accurate and speed up." When the
speech was over and the misplaced cloth returned, we all fled from the
store; company morale, I previously learned, had suffered under this
manager. I reached my car and, once inside, let go of the frustrations
and hurt that had multiplied since the job began, letting myself cry
freely, without restraint. The blame, I felt, was unwarranted. The
assistant manager had told me earlier that week that I was doing fine.
I had not been responsible for the misplaced bolts of cloth, for I'd
not seen those particular patterns that day; a customer could easily
have decided against the material and stashed it in the nearest rack.
As I thought about the excess cash, I recalled that, in past
experiences of making change, I classically over-paid, not under-paid
the customer, which would have resulted in a loss for the store. While
I may have been responsible for some error, I believed that all
complaints could not lead to me.
For the sake of my nerves, I decided to quit the job. I dried my
tears, drove out of the parking lot and headed home, where I then
called the store and told the manager I was through. I felt better
than I had felt in two weeks.
My job at the shopping mall was a vast improvement. Not only did I
work for an amiable manager, but I did not have to ring up sales at
all. A cashier was in charge of that responsibility. Moreover, when
I eventually learned to act as a replacement cashier, I had no qualms
toward making change since the machine instructed me "how much" was
owed or received; I had only to count the currency.
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