Love is serene and peaceful. Love can make you go bananas! Christmas...love with a special kind of warmth. Love is a joy ride! Love... the natural high. Lauren Isaacson April 17, 1979 As I reflected on the words I had written, I perceived I had turned my back on my greatest ally, myself. I needed to depend on myself for strength and happiness, for a burden is essentially one's own to bear. No amount of sharing and communication will take the place of one's personal acceptance of a problem; a candle cannot illuminate the darkness for one whose eyes remain closed. I reviewed, also, my diary entries of the months passed. Feb. 9, 1979... Friday the ninth... what a fantastic day! I felt terrific. I talked to (him)...he came up to me at my locker! I was the one to say "I've gotta go now." Wheee! Feb. 14, 1979... (He) and I talked. He said he was going to buy a Valentine's Day card (for me) but forgot! Mar. 8, 1979... (He) and I may go to a movie this week-end for his birthday (on me). I was a little surprised he brought it up! I was in a great mood... had a great day!! Mar. 14, 1979... (He's) making it a point to avoid me...nothing new though, right? Mar. 29, 1979... I talked to (him) at least five minutes straight! Apr. 19, 1979... I'm so down. I sure wish I could get out of it! This is a real drag. Apr. 23, 1979... I was in such a great mood today. Nothing really happened though. Ha! Oh, well. Maybe you're happier that way. May 2, 1979... Cry! It would feel better...Bad day. I was depressed most of the time... May 3, 1979... Talked to Dumbo quite a bit, considering I usually can never talk to him! I don't know why that makes me so happy. May 21, 1979... Pretty good day. I talked a TON to (him). Yippee! He said he saw me Friday night on 23rd Avenue. He kept looking at me!! He said his weekend wasn't that great. I guess that makes two of us. June 1, 1979... Last month I saw (him) once. It was 10 days between then and the time before. I hope its never that long again, although I can handle it better this time...if it works out to be that way. June 16, 1979... At 6:30 D. got me and we went to Peterson Park (because he forgot to take money out of the bank) and played frisbee and talked while (his friend) filled up the tires with air... it was fun. (He then took me home and went to a party.) I guess Norm and Mom and Dad were talking about him... he didn't go to the bank and get some money even though he knew we were going out that night. Norm told them, "If I knew I was taking a girl out, I'd make DAMN sure I had some money!" He was a little mad. Mom told me that.