Through These Eyes: The courageous struggle to find meaning in a life stressed with cancerIsaacson, Lauren Ann
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Through These Eyes: The courageous struggle to find meaning in a life stressed with cancer
Isaacson, Lauren Ann
Cancer -- Patients -- Biography; Isaacson, Lauren Ann, 1961-1986
In retrospect, it was amazing that her parents had given her permission
to accept our invitation. Having no clear picture of who I was aside
from a grocery sack full of my letters, which I might add, they were
not allowed to read, Sherry's trip was prefaced by a great deal of
anticipation; her parents coached her, and a long-necked neighbor
preached doom and despair, while friends queried about the need to
visit "some hick girl in the corn fields." She carried the
anticipation with her as she approached our airport terminal; it was
inscribed on her face next to the wary smile and suspicious eyes. I,
too, had been nervous, but by the end of the day, our misgivings had
been washed away by a flood of chatter. When we once again stood in
the airport terminal, tears welled up in our eyes; we were parting not
as pen-pals, but as friends. The days ahead seemed a little more empty
because we could share no more time together. As I prepared to fly to
New York, I fostered nervous qualms, yet my anxiety did not reflect
upon Sherry or her home; I was hoping wildly that we would still "get
along." Letters did not fill the gap that had appeared after meeting
Sherry; before we had been pen friends, but now we were friends who
wrote to each other. It was somehow quite different, and it was I who
felt in need of a shield.
Conversation was slow at first, with each of us uncertain as to which
topics would spark the most interest. I began to wonder if I had made
a mistake in coming. Her excitable nature sometimes startled me, and
when she told of incidents wherein she had screamed her rage at local
friends, I cringed in silence, hoping that I never would evoke such
fervor.
As the evening crept away, our tongues relaxed and I felt somewhat
relieved. I could be no one but myself, and I seemed to feel I was
being accepted; within I experienced a mental sigh of relief. Looking
at the clock, we discovered the hour was near 4:00 a.m. and thought it
would be best to go to sleep. "Before we can do anything tomorrow,"
Sherry said, "I have to pick up the kitchen and pick up the living
room. . ." I snickered and exclaimed, "Gee. . . you must be strong!"
Any remaining tension broke under our laughter; humor worked miracles.
The following three weeks passed in a flurry of activity, talk and
laughter. I fell into the role of second daughter and was pleased that
my temporary home proved so hospitable. Whether joking over evening
popcorn or sudsy dishwater, it was obvious that I was no guest,
but a welcome member of the tribe.
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