Through These Eyes: The courageous struggle to find meaning in a life stressed with cancerIsaacson, Lauren Ann
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Through These Eyes: The courageous struggle to find meaning in a life stressed with cancer
Isaacson, Lauren Ann
Cancer -- Patients -- Biography; Isaacson, Lauren Ann, 1961-1986
Before summer's end, I was able to realize a dream I had maintained
since I was 13 years old; Dad submitted to my desire to purchase a set
of china, regardless of the fact that it would be in the attic for at
least several years. I was elated, after five years. I still liked
the same pattern, and I simply wanted to buy the pieces while the
pattern was readily available. The rich, coffee hued plates bordered
with muted gold vines would one day bring further enjoyment to my
dinner table. I wondered when I would first use them. . . in an
apartment, to mark the beginning of a new job?. . . or in a house,
the first meal prepared for a husband. . .
Mom and I carefully packed the dishes in their boxes and I watched as
Dad pushed them, one by one, into the depths of the attic. How could
such a plan be a mistake?.
Aug. 22, 1980... Rehearsal dinner with Steve.
Mary, one of my first playmates, was about to be married. It was no
shock, she had dated the same young man for eight years. The only
comment that seemed to abound concerning the event was, "It's about
time!" I had no qualms toward the success of the marriage, for if they
had not seen the myriad facets of each other's personalities by now,
they were either blind, deaf and stupid, or extremely keen actors.
Personally, I believed in them entirely.
I asked Steve to accompany me to the rehearsal dinner, and to my
delight, he accepted the invitation without hesitation. He was my
first choice and, in my opinion, best suited for the occasion. Not
only was he personable and well-dressed but he knew the bride as well
as I did and would have no difficulty engaging in conversation with
the other guests.
Aug. 23, 1980... Mary's wedding reception 'til 12:00.
It was a lovely summer evening, and as one of three bridesmaids, I felt
elegant strolling down the aisle in my peach gown and picture hat. The
wedding progressed smoothly, with no disruptive children or sideshows,
thus ending a veritable storybook romance in the typical style.
Once the ceremony was over, several neighbors and friends remarked
that, dressed as I was, I looked like a bride; indeed, after such
processions, I could not deny that I heard my own imaginary wedding
bells. Situations like these were a jaunt from the ordinary, and
indulging in a bit of personal fantasy seemed a natural benefit.
At the reception Steve and I enjoyed ourselves on a grand scale. The
food and drink and dancing were merriment of the finest proportion, and
we hovered at each other's side throughout the night. Those who did
not know us thought we were married, and although I over-step the
bounds of modesty, I do believe we made a fine pair.
After the celebration, I held more memories to carefully tuck away.
Mary would not be living on 7th Avenue any more. I suddenly felt a
million miles from trikes and trinkets and Barbie dolls.
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Chapter 23
Black Hawk College
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