Through These Eyes: The courageous struggle to find meaning in a life stressed with cancerIsaacson, Lauren Ann
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Through These Eyes: The courageous struggle to find meaning in a life stressed with cancer
Isaacson, Lauren Ann
Cancer -- Patients -- Biography; Isaacson, Lauren Ann, 1961-1986
Out of exasperation for my warped self-image, Mom took matters into her
hands and enrolled me in a charm class, acting upon the theory that a
woman's confidence was directly related to her appearance. I objected,
but Mom insisted that I go. Thus, with reluctant steps and an uneasy
stomach, I drove to my first class.
Students were challenged to enhance unique features with which they
were born. Rather than criticizing oneself, the emphasis was on
improvement. This involved a thorough evaluation wherein one's traits
were honestly viewed, after which a commentary was meticulously written
for the instructor. Every student was given an individual make-up
consultation, and as a weekly assignment, we were to come to class
wearing make-up and proper attire. We learned the correct way to walk,
sit and gesture, and were instructed concerning hair care, manicures,
diets and exercise.
The most beneficial aspect of the class from my point of view was
learning. . .or perhaps simply remembering. . . that no one was
perfect. Moreover, vanity in carefully measured doses was not
frivolous; beauty dealt more with the ability to project one's inner
self than painting and displaying the surface characteristics. Though
it may sound shallow, the compliments which I received in class by my
instructor were the stimuli I needed to reinforce the image reflected
in my mirror. For the first time in months, I felt good about who I
was on the inside, even though I had to begin my "renovation" on the
outside.
Toward the middle of July I was able to escape in every sense of the
word when Norm and I took our second vacation together. I knew the
week would grant me time and distance required to objectively view my
troubled "romance." The trip meant a chance for both fun and
reflection.
We stayed, once again, in the basement level unit of last year's motel.
Upon entering, we quickly noted that no changes had been made. The
same relic radio still graced the dresser, and the same avocado crushed
velvet bedspread sagged drearily to meet the worn carpets covering the
floor. It was somehow a pleasant sight, albeit the fact that the place
desperately needed attention; I guess it was like a worn out pair of
tennis shoes, ugly yet be-loved for the sake of the mileage and
memories which they represented.
The following morning, as we strode toward the car, we truly felt at
home when we noticed the sadistic mailman of the previous year busily
engaged with Marion. We looked on with amazement. The one undesirable
factor of last year's vacation had reappeared!
Hoping to escape recognition, we quietly loaded the car while he jawed
away, absorbed in his story of the hour. We might have slipped from
the parking lot had it not been for Marion's eyes flicking repeatedly
from him to us. We both had one leg in the car when a huge bellow
resounded from his direction.
"Hey! Weren't you the folks with the Dart?"
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